Thursday, December 31, 2015

With A Little Help From My Friends, Pez Outlaw #pezoutlaw

 

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.



Who knows what will happen, but with the help of Larry Mason we are now looking at AI to help write the Pez Outlaw Book.
The plan would be for AI to look at & digest everything that I have written into a proper book.
With the help of others as proof readers. No idea how it will go but Larry & I are optimistic that it might at the very least be a beginning.

Here's my problem. I can write a thought & express it as say a 2 page post, but my mind jumps around to much to put all these thoughts together as a book. Add to that I am a bit Dyslexic, I can't spell for poop & have no idea of sentence or paragraph structure.

So AI???????

Larry Mason Wrote the following in his words, The rough draft of a Pez Outlaw Book Forward.
The Pez Outlaw
The unfinished story of Steve Glew
The term outlaw brings to mind various images. In westerns you can spot him right away
because he almost always wear a black hat. But in this story, the black cowboy hat is
exchanged for a green buck hat. The outlaw here is Steve Glew, a gnome-like unassuming
man with a unique laugh that sticks in your mind. His adventures are so wild some would
almost think they are fiction. Getting passed intel like you would see in a spy movie, searched
at gunpoint by border agents, … seriously? Follow Steve through his ups and downs in life,
the highs and lows in his business adventures, and how love is really the glue (Glew) that binds.
But unlike David and Goliath, sometimes the underdog doesn’t win. Sometimes the underdog
simply endures. Going deeper into the Pez Outlaw story than what the documentary covered,
you will better understand the impact the Pez Outlaw made and why the story just might not
have an ending - yet


The Pez Outlaw Movie is on Peacock & Amazon Prime.

My whole life I have been in search of something that gives my Life meaning. Who would have thought that a Pez dispenser would be the answer to that question?

I have never understood Life, let alone fit into it. We do what we must to find our path. The fact that I deal with Mental health issues & substance abuse has of course hindered my journey.

Anxiety being around people n depression cycles began when I was 15yrs old. I turned to alcahol then drugs in an attempt to fit in. It worked for a while, but by 19-20 I'd pushed that further than you should.

That's when I met Kathy, from here forward she will be refered to as Mom. Mom was my salvation, she spent the next 25yrs putting me back together. Rebuilding a tortured soul. She never asked why, she just did the work. Now you all might think n by todays way of thinking, she coulda done better. That's absolutely true, she could have. Thing is that kind of love n work comes back to you. My soul purpose in life now is to take care of her. No questions only love.

Mom has always indulged my excentricities, allowing me to find my way. this led to obsessions of various types. Collecting/hoarding. Toys, Cereal boxes, premiums n finally Pez.

Dogs n Houses

Before we moved out to the farm in 1975, where we still live. Mom n I lived for a time in the house next door to where I grew up. Dogs have always been a big part of our lives. By 1974 ish we had somewhere between 20 n 25 dogs. All were sight hounds because we were into amature dog coursing. Dogs chase a rabbit skin on a string in a big oval or straight line. 

As you might imagine the city of Lansing had something to say about that. I ended up in front of a judge trying to explain myself. Story of my life. Anyway, I promised the judge that we were trying to find some land n move out to the country. The judge said Okee Dokey. Get that done n I will dissmiss these charges.

So that's how we ended up on the farm we live on today. 48 years now.

The Farm

For the 1st 20 years here on the farm we lived in a really old farm house. Joshua (my son) n I reroofed it n wrapped it in platic during the winters. We burned wood for heat. I musta went through a wood stove every 3 or 4yrs before I burned then up.

During those years I was an accumulator. Every nook n crany had treasures stuffed in it. I had a 2ft square on my side of the bed to get in and out. Treasures gave me purpose n gratification. Like the girl sings, A Million little Band-Aids.

During those 1st 20yrs here on the farm I worked in town as a macinist n a welder. Basically I was a Glorified Blacksmith. We also got down from 25 Dogs to 5, but we aquired Cows, chickens, rabbits, pigs, sheep n finally goats. A horse or 2 but that part came on hard later.

Horses

With the New House n Pez Money came horses. 

Men you are really messing up when you fight your partner in Life's Bliss. If I could do it over I would encourage Moms desire n ownership of horses back in 1975. Here's my rule about a horse farm. If you want to survive you need 1 more horse as a paying boarder than you own. Right now 6 of the horses on our farm are ours n 7 are boarders

We raised our children in that drafty, God Awful old farm house. In 1995 when we let the Fire Department burn it down for practice Mom n I just drove away. We really had a serious love hate relationship with that old farm house. Our attachment is n always has been with our land. When we got the New house in 1995 it was a dream come true. Albeit a modular home, but who cared it was brand NEW! 

Prior to 1992

1992 was a change in our lives, before that we did not have much money, Bills were hard. Mom n I have seen quite a few hard times with money. The Carter years were especially hard. Then came our worst from 2002 to approx 2019. But from 1992 to 2002 we lived our dreams "PEZ MONEY"

1975-1985

for the 1st 5yrs on the farm we were finding our way. Homesteaders/Back to the Earth. We transitioned from Dog racing to Back to Earthers. Gardens, Burning wood for heat n all sorts of farm animals.

1985 - 1992

That 1st decade on the farm was very hard work. Poor mean Muscle to survive. By 1985 I needed more imediate gratification to sooth my demons. I've always collected Cereal items. I made a huge mistake though I was drawn to cereal premium, probably because as a child with 4 brothers I didn't get them all. Anyway I should have collected cereal boxes as I do now not premiums.

But in 1985 I branched out to obsessively aquiring Toys. Ussually closeout toys at Toysrus that I believed were good. Peewee Herman etc. Loved The Odd toys that I was drawn to.

2 Early Adventures Blazed The Trail for what became Pez Outlaw. These 2 collectibles are where I went to school for what became the Biggest thing I have ever done in my Life. SO FAR!

McDonalds Happy meal Toys n Cereal Boxes & cereal premiums.

Our Presentation was so extensive n Massive that The Folks at The Mcdonalds convention thought we were actually this special sought after group From McDonals Corp. This became a recurring theme for almost the next 2 decades. Joshua n I always put on eye popping presentations.


The great Cereal Premiums Caper.


People you do not agree with, Lets call them adversaries, can be instructive. You should study them n watch there techniques.
I have learned a lot from people with whom I do not agree.
Don't get angry, it's a waste of emotional time. Instead coldly without emotion watch them.
When people attack you they are doing it from an inherantly flawed position of weakness. They are ussually trying to convince themselves that they are right. The louder that they get, the more you realize that they are actually arguing with themselves.
The quicker you can just walk politely away, the better it is for your wellbeing.
The person that says nothing truly has confidence in there beliefs.
They feel no need to try n convice you.
I personally find it much more emotionally rewarding to say kink things about people than to try to tear them down, wrongly thinking that somehow tearing them down elevates me.
You can not elevate yourself on the ashes of your victems, you simply sink back down to where you started.
Look inward n understand who you are actually fighting with.
I've had a long time in the wilderness to look inward.
What I wrote decades ago was a primal scream.
It now is just a record of the journey.
I feel no emotion about it any longer.
Writing was the way I washed Myself clean of it.




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Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Pez Outlaw, Cranky Old Bastard ALERT! #pezoutlaw

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.

What do you think, should old men have "Cranky Old Bastard ALERT!" warning labels?


Dogs n Horses Yes but No Children Allowed.
I don't know why I should have to keep saying this, but apparently I do.

I will not follow anyone on twitter whose page image is a picture of a child.
To me it goes beyond not being in good taste.
I'm a 64 year old man. If the image on your twitter page does not at least look 20, I can not follow you back.

If your homepage image is of a horse or a dog, no problem.
If your home page image is of a child, No.

I also can not follow back any page on facebook or twitter that's in Arabic.
I  have no idea what's being said and I just can not take the chance.

Oh yeah n no porn or excessive cursing. 
Yes I screen each persons page that follows me.

I also shy away from advert pages. Like buy follower pages.
Only real people please.  No Twitter Follower Farms.

Oh yeah there's one other type of page I do not follow back because it's a waste of time.
When I screen your page one of the first things I check is the ratio of follows to followers.
If you follow say 50 people but have 2,000 followers, I will not waste my time with a follow back.
You are just going to remove your follow after the follow back is given.

Other than that though I try to follow back any real people that follow me on twitter or facebook,
After I screen your page.

I will also admit to being confused by the huge number of twenty-something young women that follow me on twitter. 
My home page image:

If you're a twenty-something woman, why on earth would you follow that?

Somebody is cranky this morning?
Is there such a thing as cranky tweeting?


After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.
new profile pic captures my essence





Pez Outlaw Diary


Thursday, November 5, 2015

Buck Up Buttercup #pezoutlaw

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.


In the last year I've come out of my shell a bit.
I've allowed people to take pictures of me.
I've been signing the Pez Outlaw autograph on items for people.

I've taped interviews.

https://www.facebook.com/mipezcon/videos/10156382185899193/?hc_ref=ARSm06Ix9znORhNi0F__cU_zPA2-_AKLekxfHskOm8pc86xxuPq4hBbudJArMgyqGwA

https://www.thepezcollection.com/allepisodes/pezoutlawpt2  

To be honest I have no idea what I'm doing or why.
A friend contacted me and wondered if I'm OK, like maybe I'm dying and all this was some sort of death bed confession in an effort to find relevance for a life lived.

I even considered going to a Pez Convention until I was told that they feared I might come across as a pathetic old man.
That one slowed me up right good.
Any thought of doing a convention disintegrated.

When I started doing all this in roughly 1998ish it was pure anger that motivated me.
My pen was fueled with rage at Pez Corporation for what I saw as the theft of 1/2 million dollars, my entire life's savings and retirement plan.

I tried on the hat of this all being about a book, my life's story.
Eventually I was even dazzled by interest in the Pez Outlaw Project from Hollywood.
Money was paid, contracts signed and a script was written, I have no idea where all that's at today.

20 years has gone by in the blink of an eye.
The best thing that's come from that 20yr investment is Notes From The Asylum/NFTA, which BTW was only started as a something to do project while I waited on Hollywood.
To my surprise  NFTA now has over 900,000 views in just 4yrs.

NFTA may have upset Hollywood but it helped me process my anger at Pez Corporation and most of all find my way out of the woods.
Another unexpected positive of NFTA has been an outlet for I charitably call it my unique mind.

I'm very proud of a few things that I've written in NFTA, I have my moments.
So, Pathetic Old Man, are you like dying?
Hell I honestly don't know anymore.

I continue this now for a new reason.
NFTA has shown me that I really enjoy writing about the things that I think about.
I very much hope that you are enjoying my stories also.

My hope is to offer a unique perspective.
I've always wanted to interact with people mind to mind, without the distractions of the body or it's trappings.

The short answer is that I'm driven to do this and I've learned to just go with something that I'm passionately driven to do.
Much to my amazement, It always somehow makes sense in the end.

The MPOGA hat is blue.
I like blue.

All that said, I'm going to continue Hawking the Book n the Movie on the outside chance that they might happen. 85k ea but I'd take 75.

Pez Outlaw, Notes From The Asylum. Movie Rights 

The Thief Who Ran Pez Corp for a Decade, Pez Outlaw Diary book publishing Rights

Thank You.
Pez Outlaw 


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Where has common sense gone?
Things that I just know are a complete mystery to more people than I can understand.
Knowledge that I received as a child is no longer taught.

I understand that reasoning skills are not given to all.
I've always been told that I've been gifted with common sense.
Was it a gift or a consolation prize.

I just had to explain something to someone that I just grew up knowing.
So many now simply recite what they are given without understanding any of it.


***************

Everything about life seems so urgent right now.
Winter's in Michigan seem to have that effect.
I was thinking last night about ways to soften my image.
Maybe if I write the best post ever written about Kittens that'd do it.
Hey it's possible, not likely, but possible.


I seem to have more questions than answers right now.
see Are we who we think we are or are we who others se..
 

I have noticed a trend over the last 5yrs, people show up with flattery and promises but once they've gotten what they wanted they ask you to lose there number.

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.


Thursday, October 1, 2015

Listen Up, Tater Head! #pezoutlaw

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.


 One of the personalities in my head is called Tater Head. 
 Conversation go like this.

The world does not revolve around you.
Yes it does.
Our individual perception of the world around us is our reality.
Our reality ends when that light goes out.

Your reality may continue but mine ends when I end.
What in the hell am I supposed to do with that?
Find peace of mind within that truth, Tater Head.

That does not mean, do as you please because only you matter.
I assume you have a conscience.
You have got a conscience, right Tater Head.

Well that means you need to maintain the best balance possibly while your steam of conscience exist.
Otherwise you live in torment of your choices.
Not a good beginning for the possible future.

Ok, so for now What?
For me it's writing my own story.
For all of us I think this is true, In my case literally in yours maybe figuratively.
If we don't write our own story, others will definitely write it for us.

Work in progress.
I got part of it, the rest?

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.
new profile pic captures my essence





Pez Outlaw Diary


Saturday, September 5, 2015

A Simple Act Of Kindness #pezoutlaw

 

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.


For years now I've been telling you stories about Busta the horse. Two things you may not know. One Busta was actually not my horse, his real mom was Andrea Keeney Cypher.  Busta was only my best friend. Which brings me to the second thing. Busta n I shared a personality type in that we are both a good bit off center, so we understood each other.

As you all know Busta Horse passed late last winter. Not a day goes by that something doesn't remind me of my friend. Not the least of which was that I could trust him to just follow Marnie Marie n I into the barn, then just go to his stall all by Himself. Mind you Busta did like to go garage sale ing on his way into the barn, but then again who in there right mind wouldn't. You could just talk to Busta, common buddy put that down, time to go in.

Busta was also an escape artist. No stall could hold him if he got bored. A bit of a Houdini-horse. It took a latch, a second latch, a cable snap n a rope to tie his stall door shut n he could udo 3 of them when he wanted to. Now you gotta admire that in someone, horse or mere man.

Ole Red is trying to fill his shoes but they are awful big. He keeps company with Marnie Marie now. Every night in Busta's Honor I still connect his cable tie on his gate when red goes in, the only latch Busta couldn't crack. I do this to honor Busta n remember him.

A simple act of Kindness compels me write this.

Ilona Schlafer sent me this sketch n painting of our dear friend.





We will have the painting matted n framed, then it will take a place of honor in the horse clubhouse. Ilona Schlafer, we deeply appreciate the gift, you made kathy cry n touched my heart,

A Simple Act Of Kindness

Thank You, everyone that sees it will remember him once again n if I'm lucky I'll get to tell them one of his stories.

Busta n I were Kindred Spirits


Tuesday, August 18, 2015

chatterbox. Gigglebot. I Know You Are, But What Am I? #pezoutlaw

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.


chatterbox

I just passed 127,000 tweets on twitter.

Here I am this morning thinking that I've become kinda Stoic.
A person of few words.
Along comes Kathy with truth.
Are you kidding, you talk a lot.

Shows ta go ya.
Your impression of who you are can be ridiculously wrong.
So I'm a chatterbox.
Now I gotta get used to that.

I know I empty my mind here.
In direct contrast when I run the films.
I see a yup, nope, ain't that somethin guy.
Coulda knocked me over with a feather.

Honestly though, it does not bother me.
My impression of who I am is the face I present to the world.
I don't feel your self image has to be accurate.
You just have to like it. 

If I wanted accuracy I'd look in a mirror.
I do not, I avoid mirrors.
Why mess with the beauty n perfection my mind has created.
Reality is poorly written n not all it's cracked up to be.

A good example.
Kathy lies to me, she only tells me what I need to hear.
At that sometimes minutes before I need to hear it.
It's the way I like it.

My brother once told me, you know she's lying to you.
Really pissed me off at him.
You fool, Kathy is the keeper of truth.
Do you think for a minute this isn't at my request.

I don't care much for reality.
Yes I watch the "News", but it's just a TV show.
Yes I like Wynonna Earp – Show | Syfy , Zombies are funny. 
I just don't look in mirrors n truth is Fungible.

We meander about through my mind daily.
In contrast I'm a very private person.
What I do here seems outside reality.
No idea how to explain that.

Somehow I feel that what I do here is private.
That all of you are observers yet not intruders into my life.
I share the crazy for fun.
Out of a need to expel thought.

Real people, no thanks.
The internet though was made for me.
Casual n non interactive if you prefer.
One or two line responses, only if n when you choose.

A poor analogy is, writing for me is like taking the trash out.
I enjoy the process, writing allows me an outlet for my creative side.
When I write I have an endless supply of crayons n paper.
What more could a guy want.

I love the follows n views.
They allow me to know when I got a thought right.
I suppose I do strive to get the words right.
I don't live n die for it but it does help pass the time n give a sense of purpose.

I say that I'm in the asylum.
Which for me is a very frustrating waiting room.
I write to help pass the time.
I wait for word of my release from 15 years purgatory.

I teeter on the edge of sanity every moment of every day.
Some days I lose, mostly though I keep it at 51% sane.
Recently I wrote about going back to 98 n changing this.
Dreams that sooth.

That said my writing I hope gives merit to the struggle. 
Pez Outlaw makes 1998 have value.
Notes from the Asylum I hope gives the last 15 years value.
If something good comes from these things then, just maybe it was worth it.

I'm a scab picker.
I just keep picking at it.
Hoping to find truth.
Failing that, peace of mind.

This is a journey.
One that I've decided to share.

Gigglebot

G1ggLE8O7 is my new password on everything. I tried to be as clever as I could so nobody would guess it. You can't be to careful, ya know.



Gigglebot
Laughter
Kathy on her knees giggling so hard that I feared she was having a stroke.

24hrs earlier
Prepped a lunchbox and put it on the tailgate of the truck for Terry our postal lady to pick up.
Unfortunately Kathy had to go to Meijers before Terry got here.
I went outside just in time to see the box going down the road, very soon to be on the side of the road somewhere.

Next day
Re-Packed the lunchbox again and placed it on the ground at the entrance to the garage in an effort to avoid a repeat of yesterday.
Kathy promptly drove over the package.
Terry pulls in and Kathy is on her knees uncontrollably giggling about it.

2 down, 4 to go
I repacked a new box
3rd times the charm, right.

2 days later
Terry our postal lady or as the dogs call her Aunt Terry texts us.
A homeowner found the 1st box (the one that flew off the back of the truck somewhere between here n Meijers) she'd bring it by.

Just re-watched the Jim Carey UPS Delivery video.
Ours was better.
Neither rain, nor sleet or stupid customers will stop Terry in her appointed rounds.

It sorta writes itself.
I watch life unfold bewildered by the script.
I ask jeff the writer n dk the producer, hey guys What's My Motivation!
I need to know why the character does this stuff?

Can I go back to bed now?

Here's the difference between being Redneck and White Trash.
A Redneck hides his losing scratchers.


I followed a squirrel on twitter Today.
It was the polite thing to do.

If this moment, the day I was born and the day I die are indistinguishable.
It brings up the possibility that "reality" is just another form of dream state.
Toying with that thought lately, wondering how to control events better.

It's that recent notion that time is actually different than we perceive it.
I wonder if we create the obstacles we think that we must overcome.
Just trying to think if there's a way to rewrite my script.

To that thought I'm making some changes.
New cover and personal images.
I want to brighten things up with a more positive feel.
I realized lately that I instinctively avoid dark presentations on the internet, then came the dawn that I was presenting myself exactly in the manner that I avoid.
Well then, possibly we better change that.
If you have any other suggestions you can contact me on twitter 

Pez Outlaw, sj glew


@pezoutlaw


After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.


Monday, August 10, 2015

The World Is Scary #pezoutlaw


The World Is Scary, What can I do?

Each new day is a gift, live it well. Behave personally in a proper responsible manner.
We all share this collective illusion of immortality.
It's the don't ask, don't tell of life itself.
We all act out each day like this isn't temporary.
With family, friends and people you meet, keep any angry, aggressive or hateful thoughts to yourself.
Down South they have a way of dealing with rude people. They just say Bless Your Heart n politely move on.
Remember, in life almost always the things that you do not say are more important than the things you do say.
Be quick with a handshake, a hug or a kind word.

Me, I also tell a lot of stories about animals.
How kind n loving the horses n dogs are.
I love to point out the progress each are making.

Crazy one.
Yesterday Billy dog was barking at Roz/horse. Roz was grabbing at an uncut bale. Billy is beginning to have an opinion about that n things. Nat/Kathy's protege, scolded Billy. You know hardly ever wrong to tell Billy to knock it off.
I explained, not in recrimination, more lawyering for Billy.
I'm kinda going slow letting Billy have her head, letting her get some thoughts, then my hope is over time to guide her thoughts in useful directions.
So long as Billy is only barking I'm OK.

Sometimes like a child when the world is scary what people need is a good story.
Crazy/weird helps.

Yes I could be justifiably accused of hiding in my world from one I can not change.
But if each of us led good decent lives wouldn't that take care of a lot of it.
Beyond that all you can do is vote your conscience.


Kathy is the one that goes out into the world, I stay home.
But isn't everyone always sayin that you should leave your dog at home.
Anyway. My head is better today. I don't seem to suck as much.


Enough of world news for today. I'm tuning to Willie's Roadhouse till Billy Dog says it's chore time. 

One final thought. There are to many terrorists in the world n not enough Story Tellers.

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.
new profile pic captures my essence





Pez Outlaw Diary