Tomorrows reward has been 25yrs of work. #pezoutlaw

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I've known for a long time that when pez outlaw is a success, some especially with projects of there own will ask, HOW!

A friend n supporter from twitter with a book just asked.

THIS! This is how.

The Key is to not let up or rest until the last chapter is written.

I watch other folks, vacations, long weekends, Parties, family gatherings of all type.

I do this (promote Pez Outlaw) every day, never a day off in 25yrs. Then I do chores.

2025 is on track to be the Breakout Year for the Pez Outlaw Story.

I can't go into it yet but the past has returned.

So here we go again.

I'm crossing streams a bit here.

A recent conversation triggered nostalgia about my years traveling all over the world in search of Pez.

I couldn't help thinking how lucky I was to have had this adventure and to have visited so many countries as a byproduct of my search.

England, France, Germany, Switzerland, Sweden, Norway, Austria, Slovenia, Hungary, Czech Republic, Slovakia, South Africa and Australia.

For 10 years I traveled roughly 10 times a year.

It was a very big n unexpected adventure, that sometimes now even seems very remote n unbelievable even to me.

josh n I just look at each other with a knowing look. Our lives are very different now but yeah we did that.

Oh yeah, almost forgot Spain. Josh also went to Italy, I missed that one, kinda burned out by then.

As unbelievable as all that was, we're not done yet. Stand by for news of the next even bigger chapter.

I believe in the impossible because I have already lived it, so why not again.
How hard could it be.

Like Tink said, you just have to believe, or was it Donald Trump who said it?

Yeah Josh, We Did That n We're Gonna Do It Again. So Hang On Tight n Keep Your Hands Off The Rip Cord.

Naked Brain

Each morning I come into the office to work n write.
To my left is a row of windows facing south with a view of the woods.
Today that view is obscured by a very heavy fog.
I can't see beyond the tree line.

This type of very heavy fog is a rare occurrence.

It's very disconcerting.
I take comfort in gazing at the familiar n unchanging.

I know whats there, it's always there. 
Today the familiar is shrouded, unclear.

I must have faith in something that I can no longer see.

I'm sure tomorrow the fog will lift and once again my woods will reveal itself.
Today though the fog leaves me in isolation, unsure. 

Originally this post was going to be a comparison of the methods people use online to attract followers. Basically how some of us are either dropping our pants or exposing our brains. How both are actually a form of nudity.

recently a timeline on my life was requested.
As I've said I do not live in the past.
Each day is a new beginning.
Yesterday is a previous life.
But asked, I obey.

Timeline

3 - 11 Fighting trouble. Locked in school closets.

11 - 13 isms n crazy entered my brain, quit fighting, cousins brothers friends, just to many to fight

15 started drinking, brought home by cops drunk

16 thru 19 doing drugs, all drugs

17 n 18 joined marine corp. 30 days, Max security county jail.

early 19 got married n separated

late 19 met Kathy. been together since the day we met.

By 20 quit drugs n drinking never looked back

Crazy though lasted intensely 11 - 43

43 - 53 Pez years

6 to 7 year hiatus from crazy

50 to 60 crazy returned a bit

43 to present Pez Outlaw years

60 to present much better

see Chapter 11. Crazy Is Easy If You Are Motivated, #... for more details.


Covid Poor! Is that a thing? It outa Be.!

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Reflection #pezoutlaw

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I can't help reflecting on how things have changed this morning.
For me the 1990s were the Roaring 90s.
Travel and Deals at the drop of a hat.
Money was just a tool and easily obtained.

Deals for $10,000.00 were small ball.
I did that as a baseline once a month.
The deals I sought were for $25,000 n $30,000.
Decisions were made in minutes on handshakes.

Now, well now things are different.
My biggest deal back then was for $1/2 to $3/4 million dollars in one year.
Today getting $3,000.00 is very difficult.
Things sure have changed.

My mind still thinks like the 90s but reality won't cooperate, except here.
I really find it difficult to cope with.
I try to do things the way I used to, but today everybody has to think about it.
Unfortunately my bills are not patient.

These things take time, be patient, it's only been a year.
Maybe for you but I've already been patient for 15 years.
I've been so patient that I think I might loose my mind.
You ever feel that pain inside where need n hope crash against each other like giant waves?

So I try another way because I'm nothing if not resourceful and it too is met with process.
I get it, it's the smart way to decide, even if it's a foreign language to me.
Won't pay for last years hay or buy the hay I need today though.
The clash of the way things are done today verses my needs today is stark.

The world around me is at odds with it's very self.
When I need or want, I must be patient while decisions are made.
When the world needs n wants from me, I must act immediately.
Yeah, that's the fun part isn't it.

I'm told that I need to work on being patient.
I've had some product 15 years waiting for it to sell.
With Pez Outlaw I've been working on it also 15 years now.
To me, I've been very patient.

Patience is very much in the eye of the beholder.
If you've come to something recently, you wish the other party to be patient.
As the other party I've been here for over a decade, I thought that was the definition of patience. 
10yrs is what People get for serious crimes, by that standard I've done hard time. 

Look, I'm not gonna go rouge or anything.
I'm gonna be good n wait, but things get kinda sticky out here some times.
So I write about it.
I keep it vague n abstract so all parties on various fronts don't pop a cork but shit I'm goin nuts.

I know in my heart that all this will pass, it always does.
One day I will be on the other side of this struggle n wish it hadn't gotten to me like it has.
That knowledge helps me maintain optimism.
I just wish that day will come soon.

If I could smoke marijuana I'm sure things would be easier.
I'd just get me a Michigan prescription n relive my youth.
2 problems with that though.
It ain't ditch weed nomore brother n I'd probably go nuts.


I know, short trip, BUD!
Oh yeah n Kathy would skin me alive. 
Reality is this.
I enjoy people who view Notes From The Asylum, but I do this for me. 

I can run around in crazy town only so long.
Then I must poke my head out.
She can't do this alone.
Because that's not fare either. 

I will though make crazy pay if it's the last thing I do. 
On that note we end this group therapy session.
Like AA, My name is Pez Outlaw.
Hello @#$ %^&*!?  


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Pez Outlaw, Full Moon #pezoutlaw

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If Larry Mason n all of you don't mind, I'm gonna start calling this mini Larry makes. Full Moon Pez Outlaw. It most accurately shows what I devolve into with each Full Moon.

The title of this post is based on the fact that my depression cyles with each Full Moon.

Just does, no idea why.

At some point I hope that I will be able to withdraw when the full moon hits n folks will understand.

During the Full Moon I can not trust my own words. 

I just can't see for myself how what I write comes across.

So silence is best.

I doubt very much that I live in the real world. My guess is that I fabricate a reality that I find more entertaining because reality bites.

Unfortunately when my world dissolves i get depressed by the reality that is left.

I can't tell you the number of times that I've been offered help for "FREE" with my writing in Pez Outlaw etc. I have rejected all offers. My writing style is very purposeful, some is even intentional.
I present my thoughts in the style that I wish them to be viewed in. You either get it or you don't, to me it's the same thing as not everybody is a country music fan.

In conversations about Pez Outlaw as a published book, It has been suggested that I should read some biography's to get an idea of how it's done. Well, here's the bad news, for about 20 years due to my particular mental???? Biographies were all I read. So I understand what a correct Biography looks like.

Let me ask you. Am I Thomas Edison, William Randolph Hearst or Howard Hughes? No, so if I'm going to ask you to spend money n time reading about me, I had better get to the point as to why. Very little of my childhood is of any interest unless it actually is interesting.

Delusion Dissolution. Whatever, Don't care. I love those two words together, they tickle me.
The only reason I write anything is because it pleases, ME! I'm certainly not getting paid to do it in any meaningful way so it better be something I do for pleasure.
 
Of course this is all void if I'm paid n asked to do it there way. What can I say, I'm a whore once I've been paid.


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