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You walk a lonely road.
Waiting to achieve the impossible.
Now you wait for reality to catch up to the dream.
The things that happen, never on your Bingo Card.
The real goals still not achieved.
I heard decades ago that One Flew Over The Kookoos Nest went from father to son & Took a decade. I Wish.
I look at these pictures & ask myself Who is this?We search for relevence, in a world that makes us feel small.I yern for the days when physical me was detached from my self image.I was stronger then & what was possible seemed much larger.I prefered it when I was an entity devoid of physical confines.Is the reality in front of me better than the dream?Every morning we get up n we try.Try to do better.Try to overcome the obstacles life puts in front of us.Try to live up to what life expects of us.
Time is the real comodity we sell for our dreams.Time is also the finite thing we are given to trade.Time slips away like grains of sand in an hour glass.
Always searching for the Truth.Truth is a very slippery thing.Truth is ussually what the majority accepts.Truth will not give you back the time you spent to find it.
I also get up every day n ask. Today?Any good news Today?The answer for Today is always tomorrow.So Today we wait, once again.
How many decades will this cost?This dream we seek, does not give up its secrets without cost.How many times have I sat at the table n pushed all my chips in?I wish I could click my heels n we would be there, all the waiting at its end.We toil away in darkness, our only Light is Hope.
20 years the price.I grow so impatient, yet I must act patient n understanding.The Dream, so much bigger.Anyway, Puppy says we fight on. N play n zoomies.
I look at these pictures & ask myself Who is this?
We search for relevence, in a world that makes us feel small.
I yern for the days when physical me was detached from my self image.
I was stronger then & what was possible seemed much larger.
I prefered it when I was an entity devoid of physical confines.
Is the reality in front of me better than the dream?
Every morning we get up n we try.
Try to do better.
Try to overcome the obstacles life puts in front of us.
Try to live up to what life expects of us.
Time is the real comodity we sell for our dreams.
Time is also the finite thing we are given to trade.
Time slips away like grains of sand in an hour glass.
Always searching for the Truth.
Truth is a very slippery thing.
Truth is ussually what the majority accepts.
Truth will not give you back the time you spent to find it.
I also get up every day n ask. Today?
Any good news Today?
The answer for Today is always tomorrow.
So Today we wait, once again.
How many decades will this cost?
This dream we seek, does not give up its secrets without cost.
How many times have I sat at the table n pushed all my chips in?
I wish I could click my heels n we would be there, all the waiting at its end.
We toil away in darkness, our only Light is Hope.
20 years the price.
20 years the price.
I grow so impatient, yet I must act patient n understanding.
The Dream, so much bigger.
Anyway, Puppy says we fight on. N play n zoomies.
Adrift between two plains of existence.People politely walk away.I see it happening, I try to learn from this.So many similarities between his path n mine.I pray that I'm wrong n Fear that I'm right.We simply repeat previously forgotten dreams.Wishing that this time might be different.
Life is very Hard.
I speak with people daily fighting the good fight.Gotta tell you I'd be done for without Mom, the Puppies n the Horses {n of course Birdie n Jelly).Try as I might I can't fight your Battle. I can encourage, console n hopefully make you feel not alone.My journey has been 25yrs. I did not just get here in one shake of a lambs tale.Think about that, 25yrs. That is not a minute, it's serious time. Poverty, Deep Deep Depression. Yet Mom n I survived. We fought every inch of the way.One half of that debt we incurred in 1998 is gone now. We finally can breathe a bit. By no means are we rich, actually we have just risen to lower middle class. The fight is more begun than won.People say famous, a star. If so still one with not a lot of money.Truth a Farmer, I work. Mom n I get up every morning n fight on.I have learned Kindness because of the kindness of others.New thing, Mom has had to start saying No for me, because I ware myself to a frazzel.
Adrift between two plains of existence.
People politely walk away.
I see it happening, I try to learn from this.
So many similarities between his path n mine.
I pray that I'm wrong n Fear that I'm right.
We simply repeat previously forgotten dreams.
Wishing that this time might be different.
I am a better person because of the people I know. All of you.
My Future is shaped by my past.
My problems are the ones I prayed for, 2 decades earlier.
When I began in 1992 I had no Idea I was creating a character in a movie.
To me my reality was living a lie.
I thought I was just escaping a Life I could no longer live.
Fueled with desire I set out on the path I felt I was meant to walk.
The next decade was a dream come true.
I live within depression cycles, But for 10yrs I broke that cycle.
The happiest decade I had ever lived.
The Devil will have his due though, my old friend returned with a vengeance.
Please don't feel pity or sadness, this is a story of Hope, Dreams n Love.
For a person who deals with depression (I shy from the term "suffers From" because I deal with it not suffer from it) I think that I'm Possibly the most optimistic person you will meet.
That is helped by a very rich fantasy life which when it's working I escape to.
I started writing Pez Outlaw Diary before I knew I was even doing it. It took about 5 years for me to realize that I was actually writing HIS story.
At 15yrs into the Pez Outlaw project I started writing Notes From The Asylum n that's where I believe I've done my best work.
Curious thing that, The Asylum was actually started out of sheer boredom while I was under contract for a Movie with Warner Brothers Pictures for a year n 1/2.
The people that I was under contract with did not like that I was writing it. Well, they went away n The Asylum actually triggered a Movie actually being made.
Kinda Ironic, Don't you think.
I have always had a very strong belief in the Pez Outlaw Project, even when I was literally the only person that believed in it.
My methods have even been ridiculed n laughed at, yet I still believed.
I could very easily have failed if I had relented, I almost quit a few times.
During those times I let My work carry the ball.
So here we are, the movie premieres on March 13, 2022 at SXSW.
OH Lord, What have I Done?
Today is the 1st day my fantasy became real.
A wave of anxiety came over me.
We are so close to this whole Pez Outlaw thing Busting Wide Open.
I'm not sure I'm ready for it, ARE YOU?
I fear that we all might be overwhelmed by it.
You work Tirelessly 20yrs for something, then you fear what you have done.
If anybody has a Red Female Bullmastif Puppy to Donate, I sure could use her.
When it's hard or inconvenient is when it matters most.
I Know what it was but I'm now uncertain of what it is.
I like to think that I'm a Kinder Person over the last 3yrs because of all of the Kindness shown to me by others.
I hear things, a word here n there that show the light.
A spark of what will be.
After the article came out, Kathy asked.
What exactly are you trying to accomplish?
Have you read this? April 2015 Playboy "the Pez Outlaw"
You realize you come off fairly cray-cray.
real simple answers, not in order.
If I get paid, no I do not care.
In life we all become what or who we need to be to get paid.
We become Doctors, lawyers, factory workers, salesmen or in my case Pez Outlaw.
Don't you care at all what people think of or about you?
answer, no I do not.
What exactly are you trying to accomplish?
Have you read this? April 2015 Playboy "the Pez Outlaw"
You realize you come off fairly cray-cray.
real simple answers, not in order.
If I get paid, no I do not care.
In life we all become what or who we need to be to get paid.
We become Doctors, lawyers, factory workers, salesmen or in my case Pez Outlaw.
Don't you care at all what people think of or about you?
answer, no I do not.
Day to Day we mark time
We amuse ourselves best we can
All the while we wait
Hope n dream of something better
Mediocrity killing our souls with each day
Dreams the lifeline we cling to
Each spark to amuse the wait
A vision of a future as time slips away
In dreams we chase but never arrive
I thought at the time n it seemed that I walked a solitary path.
I had no idea so many of you walked my path with me, that my Dream was shared by so many.
Millions of you walked with me.
Pez Outlaw is the American dream, all be it from the point of view of an Outlaw.
This is your story.
Today I referred to someone very famous by there 1st name to Joshua. We both looked at each other like?????
Yeah that seemed normal, not at all. Yet these people are tangentially a part of our lives now. The world has gone nuts, Whattaya gonna do?
Pez Outlaw you are a very weird person n you are taking me down some strange roads.
This all stems from my long conversation yesterday with my good friend Bryan.
The gist of a portion of that talk was my assessment of the Playboy story about Pez Outlaw 5yrs ago.
Before I say anything, I want to say that I've never read it, I go by what people say n they seem to have loved it.
Pushed in a corner to have an opinion though, I had to tell Bryan that from what I've heard about it, it lacked a soul.
I get it, everybody loves the father son story, But to me that's missing the forest for the tree.
Last night n this morning a thought kept churning around in my mind.
That thought is how the Pez Outlaw story is actually a story of the same struggle of aspirations vs reality that all working middle class n poor in America deal with.
I spent 20yrs in the shop working for someone else, every day dreaming about all the things that I later did as Pez Outlaw.
The middle class n poor of America all yearn for a shot, there shot at something better for there families.
We all dream of making our big play n winning.
The middle class n poor of America all yearn for a shot, there shot at something better for there families.
We all dream of making our big play n winning.
Pez Outlaw's story is there story n the story needs to encourage & embrace them.
Every Hard working person out there with dreams needs to be able to see themselves in his story.
We don't know shit n didn't go to Harvard or Yale, we only know hard work n dreams.
Why do you think Survivor, American Idol, The Voice n state Lotteries are so popular?
People dream of something better.
It's my fault for not writing Pez Outlaw Diary better, but I think it is the story of that dream.
My yearning while working in the shop was no different than yours.
My attempt at something better for my family is the same thing you work hard for every day.
I just wish that I'd written it better so that that was more obvious.
I believe that had there been or if there was a Pez Outlaw Movie n it focused on the fight our fight for something better, that movie would find a big audience in Middle America.
They'd delight in watching one of there own make a big international corporation go NUTS.
Who wouldn't go see a likeable Outlaw that pokes a finger in the eye of a Big Rich Ole International Corporation?
What part of that scenario do you think wouldn't tickle poor n middle class folks to there bone?
Pez Outlaw does in real life what most poor n middle class folks wish they could do.
Why do you think Survivor, American Idol, The Voice n state Lotteries are so popular?
People dream of something better.
It's my fault for not writing Pez Outlaw Diary better, but I think it is the story of that dream.
My yearning while working in the shop was no different than yours.
My attempt at something better for my family is the same thing you work hard for every day.
I just wish that I'd written it better so that that was more obvious.
I believe that had there been or if there was a Pez Outlaw Movie n it focused on the fight our fight for something better, that movie would find a big audience in Middle America.
They'd delight in watching one of there own make a big international corporation go NUTS.
Who wouldn't go see a likeable Outlaw that pokes a finger in the eye of a Big Rich Ole International Corporation?
What part of that scenario do you think wouldn't tickle poor n middle class folks to there bone?
Pez Outlaw does in real life what most poor n middle class folks wish they could do.
Putting a finger in the eye of power n who doesn't like that?
THEY is a euphemism frequently used by the working class for an unseen, unnameable entity that it's perceived to keep the working class down.
A likeable Outlaw is very appealing to working middle class n poor.
Think I'm Nut's, OK why do so many TV shows have the word Outlaw in the Title?
The rise n eventual fall of Pez Outlaw would not be disheartening if the refusal to give up or give in afterwards was also shown.
I believe people would find a hero in one of them who fought on after losing most everything, yet still refused to give up.
The Pez Outlaw fall was at the same time more or less as there fall during the housing crisis.
When they were losing there homes I came within inches of losing mine.
Everybody in Middle America knows someone close that lost there home.
I was just to stupid to let it go, which is why I'm still fighting to keep my home.
That spirit to fight on is your spirit, you don't give up, you keep fighting.
There will be plenty of time to rest when we're dead.
The Movie itself if there was one would be a victory for every person who gets up each day n just keeps on fighting for something better.
That's why I think a great opening shot for a movie would be an OLD Pez Outlaw in a dark corner of the movie set watching his movie being made, reflecting on the life that led him to that moment.
That moment of watching the Pez Outlaw Movie being made is the Money Shot, it is the victory of Middle America n everything that they believe.
You don't need to change the story.
Just add another dimension to the story you have.
People are different n each should be able to walk out of the movie with an aspect that touched them personally.
Of course show n run with the Crazy, that's where the fun of it comes in.
I would also employ The Irving Thalberg formula.
Show Pez Outlaw being mistreated early on to gain sympathy n forgiveness for some of the things he does because it's crucial movie goers like n root for the character to win.
Pez Outlaw, You Crazy Bastard, I will never forget you.
Pez Outlaw Diary
A likeable Outlaw is very appealing to working middle class n poor.
Think I'm Nut's, OK why do so many TV shows have the word Outlaw in the Title?
The rise n eventual fall of Pez Outlaw would not be disheartening if the refusal to give up or give in afterwards was also shown.
I believe people would find a hero in one of them who fought on after losing most everything, yet still refused to give up.
The Pez Outlaw fall was at the same time more or less as there fall during the housing crisis.
When they were losing there homes I came within inches of losing mine.
Everybody in Middle America knows someone close that lost there home.
I was just to stupid to let it go, which is why I'm still fighting to keep my home.
That spirit to fight on is your spirit, you don't give up, you keep fighting.
There will be plenty of time to rest when we're dead.
The Movie itself if there was one would be a victory for every person who gets up each day n just keeps on fighting for something better.
That's why I think a great opening shot for a movie would be an OLD Pez Outlaw in a dark corner of the movie set watching his movie being made, reflecting on the life that led him to that moment.
That moment of watching the Pez Outlaw Movie being made is the Money Shot, it is the victory of Middle America n everything that they believe.
You don't need to change the story.
Just add another dimension to the story you have.
People are different n each should be able to walk out of the movie with an aspect that touched them personally.
Of course show n run with the Crazy, that's where the fun of it comes in.
I would also employ The Irving Thalberg formula.
Show Pez Outlaw being mistreated early on to gain sympathy n forgiveness for some of the things he does because it's crucial movie goers like n root for the character to win.
Pez Outlaw, You Crazy Bastard, I will never forget you.
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