Pez Outlaw, Duffluffagus #pezoutlaw

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.

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I'm now officially out of the Pez Outlaw Duffel Bag Business.
If you want one so you to can create a historic piece of Pez History.
CONTACT Jon Hicks below
https://jonspez.weebly.com/pez-outlaw-duffel-bags.html#/

4 examples of these rare Pez Outlaw Duffel bags & how collectors are displaying them. RARE, because at best 30 collectors will ever be able to own one of these duffel bags used by Pez Outlaw to smuggle Pez dispensers into the USA from Europe in the 1990s.

Think about it less people will ever be able to own one of these Pez Outlaw duffel bags than a Make A Face or a Black Santa. So Yeah I'd say rare. Add to that that the Pez Outlaw decade was probably the single most impactful decade in the History of Pez. Before Funko Who else could lay claim to having created 30 some Pez, Introduced Crystals (and created the name crystals), Glow in the Dark, Bubble Man and Black Santa. 

Let me share some inside info. There existed at one point in time.

315 to 400 Black Santa's of vari ing type.

300 to 450 Owl Melody Makers

Make A Face was an over the counter item, at least 100 exist on the card and easily that many loose and my guess is that that estimate is very low. I know of 48 Make A Face on the card in one buy alone and there have been several over the decades.

The known universe of Pez Outlaw bags used to smuggle 800,000 pez is 35 bags and many collectors are buying 2, 1 of ea style.

As with everything there is a window when a particular thing becomes available. 1st reactions are always, wow that seems like a lot of them. Then boom they are gone and that particular window of opportunity is gone forever. You may not realize but when I got the 30 Black Santa's in 1994 there were some who actually got angry thinking that it was just to many. I sold every one and now 24yrs later try and find one to buy.

The latest proud owner of a Pez Outlaw Duffel bag
Jon Hicks

  I want to thank the following people who have added Pez Outlaw Duffel bags to there collections.  Lacy Ash, Frank Mountford, Chris Wiley, Megan Northrup, Michael Bassano, Jon Hicks and Jim Blaine.

Judy A Mesler, Lacy Ash, Frank Mountford  and Jim Blaine have Pez Outlaw Cargo Bags.

The fact that these duffel and cargo bags are proudly displayed in Pez Collections as cherished pieces of pez history is very rewarding. A special thank you to Jim Blaine for starting all this. 



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Pez Outlaw Duffel Bag Sells For $881.00 In Charity Auction
Lacey Ash was the very generous winner.

If you would like to buy one of these Duffel Bags I used to bring Pez Dispensers in from Europe as Pez Outlaw.

All are signed Pez Outlaw & Steven J Glew near address written on outside of bag.
These bags were used to transport approx 800,000 pez into the USA by Pez Outlaw.

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Below item SOLD to Megan Northrup

Megan Northrup's 7FCBgs1of3Duf

Megan Northrup's 7FCBgs1of3Duf under signatures means or signifies that this bag was 1 of 3 dufffel bags out of 7 bags total used in the French Connection.

Megan Northrup's French Connection Bag with Aeroports de Paris Securite sticker on it.
 

The TOTAL known Universe of Pez Outlaw Duffel and Cargo bags is 35.
Which means only 35 Pez Collectors will ever own and frame in a glass box on there pez collection wall (many are buying a Duffel & a Cargo so how many can have in collection is actually smaller) one of these bags that I brought roughly 800,000 pez dispensers into the USA during the Pez Outlaw years.

9 top load green Duffel bags (5 really old ones of which 4 are now gone & 4 newer replacement ones)

4 side zip green duffel bags

4 large blue cargo bags

13 large black cargo bags (2 are sold/gone)

5 Duffels recently found in a closet

How many exist of a collectible is usually not told in the world I came from as Pez Outlaw.
I got up this morning and said to myself, ENOUGH!
I've tried since the Pez Color War of 1998 to be painfully open and honest with you.

Brief background on these Duffel Bags used by Pez Outlaw to hand carry 6 to 800,000 Pez Dispensers into the USA from other countries. As Pez Outlaw I sold roughly 2 Million Pez Dispenser and earned 4.5 Million dollars in 11 years. These Duffel Bags played a very big role in transporting/smuggling all these pez.

These Duffel Bags were used as my primary means of transporting the Pez Dispensers I purchased in my over 100 trips abroad. Countries visited to buy Pez were Austria, Australia, Sweden, Finland, Switzerland, Germany, France, Czech Republic, Slovakia, Slovenia, Hungary, Spain, and South Africa.

In each trip I transported on average 6 to 8,000 pez dispensers, coming to a total of 600,000 on the low side and 800,000 pez on the high side. All hand carried across international borders in these Duffel Bags.

Step one was to put every Pez Dispenser into a 3 by 6 inch clear or made in Hungary zip lock bag. As required by US Customs, every pez dispenser had to have country of origin, so if it had it on stem, clear bag, if not made in Hungary bag.

The next step was to double bag the Duffel bags one in side the other, then line with cardboard.
Step 3 was to dump 3 to 5 cases of pez in each Duffel Bag. Depending on the size of Duffel or Cargo bag, each bag contained on average 1,200 pez dispensers.

On each trip I brought back between 6 and 8 Duffel/Cargo Bags. This required 2 large freight carts at airport curb @ $50.00 per cart in porter tips. Extra luggage back then was $100 to $120 per bag. To transport the Swedish haul to the airport it took 2 Taxi Cabs plus my rental car to haul it all and that was not unusual. 


You want to know a sight that will really break your heart. Several times while waiting to get off a plane, I was able to watch my luggage being removed from the cargo hold. I sat looking out the window of the plane to see my duffel bags tossed from the hatch down onto the tarmac. At least an eight or ten foot drop. Now that will break your heart.

black bags, green bags, springs. In my early travels I used standard military type green duffel bags for transporting Pez dispensers. Not the little ones you see slung over one shoulder with ease. No, I used the ones that hunch you over and when full weigh about 100 pounds. You see the goal was 1200 pez dispensers per bag. A few years in I switched to a very large black canvas cargo type bag that zipped across the top for transporting Pez dispensers. I always lined the exterior with 1 layer of cardboard and individually zip lock bagged each pez dispenser. 

Over a 10 year period I spent well over 1/2 million Dollars cash on Pez dispensers in Hungary alone. At least $250,000.00 of that was in the form of bribes, or money skimmed off the top for services rendered. Everybody got a piece of the Pez Money.

Now For the Fun Stuff

In the beginning of my travels abroad I used to paddle-lock all of my Duffel/Cargo Bags closed.
The pictures below will give you an idea how that went over with US Customs Officials.

SOLD

SOLD

US Customs Officials cut all the locks off whenever my luggage was lost. Which happened a lot, though in my over 100 trips I never lost a bag forever. Though on one occasion I did lose my luggage for approximately 10 days. Usually I just unlocked the bags for customs inspection, but when my bags were flying solo the locks got cut. I found these 2 cut locks And this slip of paper in the bags when I got them out for re-storage. On the Business channel today they were talking about the widespread corruption in Hungary.
I always thought of it as a vigorous entrepreneurial spirit. Why else do you think I spent over a decade traveling to n buying Pez There. I love Hungary.
Pez Outlaw always felt very much at home in Hungary.

Be Honest, You thought for sure that with this kind of a buildup I wouldn't be able to resist doing the obvious. Because let's be honest restraint is not my nature. I can't explain it, but for now I'm not gonna do it.

Well that's today, we'll talk again soon.

signing bag for Frank

signing bag for Chris. it was very hot n I was losing my mind.

signing a Pez Bank for a customer. Pez Outlaw Long may he live.

Recording the podcast at noon on 9-9-2018.
Hope it turns out OK.

If you want an OFFICIAL SIGNED Pez Outlaw Duffel Bag 
CONTACT Jon Hicks below
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After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

Pez Corporate Fraud, Pez Color War, Restitution.

 





 
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The Walking Wounded. #pezoutlaw

 I think that when we are dead & gone we will be remembered by the way we touched other peoples lives.

So wave at your neighbors, It cost you nothing to be kind.

To avoid any misunderstanding. I have been clean & sober for over 50yrs. I do not use marjuana in any form or drink alcahol. To that point no drugs or alcahol are even allowed on our farm.

I lack the ability to deal with any interaction with that type of thing.

People should do as they please, God bless them. Just not on our farm, It is very bad for me.

I try very hard not to take positions on things here on my facebook page & this is by no means a condemnation of others personal behavior. Just a personal clarification. I need to make my stand with the walking wounded.

Due to mental health issues I self medicated for 5 years when I was a child. I was a drunk & used every drug that I could lay my hands on. I spent most days in that period of time drunk or high on drugs.

Everything from smoking dope to Meth & Heroin. I also did a ton of LSD. I would not say that I profitted in any way from any of it. If anything it made my mental health issues worse. It took me 20yrs to finally get a handle on my issues.

To me drugs & alcahol are just a detour that does not address the mental health issues that I needed to address. It just puts it off to another day.

For me, I would wake up from being High & then have two problems to deal with. Mental health plus what I did or said while High. My mind became more fragile because of Alcahol & drug use. I still deal with my Demons every day, it does not go away. I am not proud of those years.

It is very important for me & to me to speak about these things. There are a lot of us out here & no one should feel alone.

We smile, We try & We hope for a better tomorrow.

The fact that we are here means we are meant to do this.

So to my point, Please do not Glorify the use of drugs or alcahol on my page. Such posts will be deleted.

Other than all that, God Love You & do as you please. It is none of my business.

Also Please forgive me. I do not join groups.

Like Groucho Marx said. "I will not join any group that would have me as a member."

Ilona Stevens & I once had a discusion after I said that Mental health isues get better. That's a hard one.

The Demons stay but how you handle them does improve with work.

One big one is the Anger Management. For over 2 decades my internal anger at what I was dealing with was a definite issue. I wanted to blame something or somebody & was hunting for the why.

It takes the final understanding that nobody is causing this, it just is.

My anger was never physical but it was a bit loud.

The big difference now is that I no longer get angry at all. I accept the frustration & depression. I ride it out. When I feel it coming I start my prep to cope with it.

Also & this is a big one. I quit swearing. Cursing when your mental health issues flare up is an escalator. Which just makes it worse. Calm acceptance & shut your mouth, nobody needs to hear it when your mind is struggling. You will emerge from the bottom & you will not have added additional problems to regret.

So I guess what I meant was. It does get better as you get older in that you know better how to deal with your Mental Health issues.

I will never forget the people I have met who are struggling with there Mental Health issues.

One that stands out. While we were promoting the movie there was the young woman I met after the movie had shown. She was crying & in a rough spot.

I was supposed to get out front for Q&A, but I imediately paused the world. Nothing was more important than her in that moment.

First I always hug people who need a hug. Then we talk. I told her to avoid the things that trigger her issues.

Her wife was standing calmly while we talked & she cried. My final advice to her was, Your wife is your strength when you need it. Let her help & guide you.

Here's a hint. I live in my fantacy world. I let mom deal with reality. It's the unspoken deal that we have made. Bryan Storkel said that the Pez Outlaw Music video really wasn't my actual story. In truth it was more my story than the real story. I mean, I wrote it in a blog post called "The Pez Outlaw Cartoons." #pezoutlaw

In short. There is the real world & then there is the way that I see the world. Thank you very much, but I prefer my version of real. It is way more fun.

We who deal with mental health issues may not get to be happy like normal people. Happy always means that the Dark is coming. Middle is what I strive for. But we are allowed Funny.

Mom says that I am not funny. I say, But The Pez Outlaw is. That guy cracks me up.

Sock Puppet Guy. MASH.

Here is another hint.

There will always be people who do not like you & want to see you fall. Do not give them the time of day. They can not & are not allowed into your world. They just do not exist.

A very big part of my mental health wellness is due to The Horses, Dogs & cats. Every animal here on the farm has a story in my cartoon reality.

Probably why I'm not allowed down at the arena when structured Horsie things are going on. I do tend to get going on telling the animal stories.

Tomorrows reward has been 25yrs of work. #pezoutlaw

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.

ebay link to Pez Outlaw Collectibles.

https://www.ebay.com/.../Pez-Outlaw-By-sj-glew/_i.html...

 

I've known for a long time that when pez outlaw is a success, some especially with projects of there own will ask, HOW!

A friend n supporter from twitter with a book just asked.

THIS! This is how.

The Key is to not let up or rest until the last chapter is written.

I watch other folks, vacations, long weekends, Parties, family gatherings of all type.

I do this (promote Pez Outlaw) every day, never a day off in 25yrs. Then I do chores.

2025 is on track to be the Breakout Year for the Pez Outlaw Story.

I can't go into it yet but the past has returned.

So here we go again.

I'm crossing streams a bit here.

A recent conversation triggered nostalgia about my years traveling all over the world in search of Pez.

I couldn't help thinking how lucky I was to have had this adventure and to have visited so many countries as a byproduct of my search.

England, France, Germany, Switzerland, Sweden, Norway, Austria, Slovenia, Hungary, Czech Republic, Slovakia, South Africa and Australia.

For 10 years I traveled roughly 10 times a year.

It was a very big n unexpected adventure, that sometimes now even seems very remote n unbelievable even to me.

josh n I just look at each other with a knowing look. Our lives are very different now but yeah we did that.

Oh yeah, almost forgot Spain. Josh also went to Italy, I missed that one, kinda burned out by then.

As unbelievable as all that was, we're not done yet. Stand by for news of the next even bigger chapter.

I believe in the impossible because I have already lived it, so why not again.
How hard could it be.

Like Tink said, you just have to believe, or was it Donald Trump who said it?

Yeah Josh, We Did That n We're Gonna Do It Again. So Hang On Tight n Keep Your Hands Off The Rip Cord.

Naked Brain

Each morning I come into the office to work n write.
To my left is a row of windows facing south with a view of the woods.
Today that view is obscured by a very heavy fog.
I can't see beyond the tree line.

This type of very heavy fog is a rare occurrence.

It's very disconcerting.
I take comfort in gazing at the familiar n unchanging.

I know whats there, it's always there. 
Today the familiar is shrouded, unclear.

I must have faith in something that I can no longer see.

I'm sure tomorrow the fog will lift and once again my woods will reveal itself.
Today though the fog leaves me in isolation, unsure. 

Originally this post was going to be a comparison of the methods people use online to attract followers. Basically how some of us are either dropping our pants or exposing our brains. How both are actually a form of nudity.

recently a timeline on my life was requested.
As I've said I do not live in the past.
Each day is a new beginning.
Yesterday is a previous life.
But asked, I obey.

Timeline

3 - 11 Fighting trouble. Locked in school closets.

11 - 13 isms n crazy entered my brain, quit fighting, cousins brothers friends, just to many to fight

15 started drinking, brought home by cops drunk

16 thru 19 doing drugs, all drugs

17 n 18 joined marine corp. 30 days, Max security county jail.

early 19 got married n separated

late 19 met Kathy. been together since the day we met.

By 20 quit drugs n drinking never looked back

Crazy though lasted intensely 11 - 43

43 - 53 Pez years

6 to 7 year hiatus from crazy

50 to 60 crazy returned a bit

43 to present Pez Outlaw years

60 to present much better

see Chapter 11. Crazy Is Easy If You Are Motivated, #... for more details.


Covid Poor! Is that a thing? It outa Be.!

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

Pez Outlaw Diary

Reflection #pezoutlaw

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.

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I can't help reflecting on how things have changed this morning.
For me the 1990s were the Roaring 90s.
Travel and Deals at the drop of a hat.
Money was just a tool and easily obtained.

Deals for $10,000.00 were small ball.
I did that as a baseline once a month.
The deals I sought were for $25,000 n $30,000.
Decisions were made in minutes on handshakes.

Now, well now things are different.
My biggest deal back then was for $1/2 to $3/4 million dollars in one year.
Today getting $3,000.00 is very difficult.
Things sure have changed.

My mind still thinks like the 90s but reality won't cooperate, except here.
I really find it difficult to cope with.
I try to do things the way I used to, but today everybody has to think about it.
Unfortunately my bills are not patient.

These things take time, be patient, it's only been a year.
Maybe for you but I've already been patient for 15 years.
I've been so patient that I think I might loose my mind.
You ever feel that pain inside where need n hope crash against each other like giant waves?

So I try another way because I'm nothing if not resourceful and it too is met with process.
I get it, it's the smart way to decide, even if it's a foreign language to me.
Won't pay for last years hay or buy the hay I need today though.
The clash of the way things are done today verses my needs today is stark.

The world around me is at odds with it's very self.
When I need or want, I must be patient while decisions are made.
When the world needs n wants from me, I must act immediately.
Yeah, that's the fun part isn't it.

I'm told that I need to work on being patient.
I've had some product 15 years waiting for it to sell.
With Pez Outlaw I've been working on it also 15 years now.
To me, I've been very patient.

Patience is very much in the eye of the beholder.
If you've come to something recently, you wish the other party to be patient.
As the other party I've been here for over a decade, I thought that was the definition of patience. 
10yrs is what People get for serious crimes, by that standard I've done hard time. 

Look, I'm not gonna go rouge or anything.
I'm gonna be good n wait, but things get kinda sticky out here some times.
So I write about it.
I keep it vague n abstract so all parties on various fronts don't pop a cork but shit I'm goin nuts.

I know in my heart that all this will pass, it always does.
One day I will be on the other side of this struggle n wish it hadn't gotten to me like it has.
That knowledge helps me maintain optimism.
I just wish that day will come soon.

If I could smoke marijuana I'm sure things would be easier.
I'd just get me a Michigan prescription n relive my youth.
2 problems with that though.
It ain't ditch weed nomore brother n I'd probably go nuts.


I know, short trip, BUD!
Oh yeah n Kathy would skin me alive. 
Reality is this.
I enjoy people who view Notes From The Asylum, but I do this for me. 

I can run around in crazy town only so long.
Then I must poke my head out.
She can't do this alone.
Because that's not fare either. 

I will though make crazy pay if it's the last thing I do. 
On that note we end this group therapy session.
Like AA, My name is Pez Outlaw.
Hello @#$ %^&*!?  


After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

new profile pic captures my essence

Pez Outlaw Diary

Pez Outlaw, Full Moon #pezoutlaw

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.

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If Larry Mason n all of you don't mind, I'm gonna start calling this mini Larry makes. Full Moon Pez Outlaw. It most accurately shows what I devolve into with each Full Moon.

The title of this post is based on the fact that my depression cyles with each Full Moon.

Just does, no idea why.

At some point I hope that I will be able to withdraw when the full moon hits n folks will understand.

During the Full Moon I can not trust my own words. 

I just can't see for myself how what I write comes across.

So silence is best.

I doubt very much that I live in the real world. My guess is that I fabricate a reality that I find more entertaining because reality bites.

Unfortunately when my world dissolves i get depressed by the reality that is left.

I can't tell you the number of times that I've been offered help for "FREE" with my writing in Pez Outlaw etc. I have rejected all offers. My writing style is very purposeful, some is even intentional.
I present my thoughts in the style that I wish them to be viewed in. You either get it or you don't, to me it's the same thing as not everybody is a country music fan.

In conversations about Pez Outlaw as a published book, It has been suggested that I should read some biography's to get an idea of how it's done. Well, here's the bad news, for about 20 years due to my particular mental???? Biographies were all I read. So I understand what a correct Biography looks like.

Let me ask you. Am I Thomas Edison, William Randolph Hearst or Howard Hughes? No, so if I'm going to ask you to spend money n time reading about me, I had better get to the point as to why. Very little of my childhood is of any interest unless it actually is interesting.

Delusion Dissolution. Whatever, Don't care. I love those two words together, they tickle me.
The only reason I write anything is because it pleases, ME! I'm certainly not getting paid to do it in any meaningful way so it better be something I do for pleasure.
 
Of course this is all void if I'm paid n asked to do it there way. What can I say, I'm a whore once I've been paid.


After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

new profile pic captures my essence

Pez Outlaw Diary

Pez Outlaw Goes To Hollywood #pezoutlaw

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.

ebay link to Pez Outlaw Collectibles.

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The Pez Outlaw Movie/Documentary is finnished.

Now I wait for people to decide who I am.

Character in a TV sitcom, Movie Star, Author, Maybe a even a Historical Figure.

God knows, Like I said people haven't decided.

You'd think 20yrs might be time enough.

Even the littlest of things takes so long.

I'm asked again to show patience, last time that cost me 5yrs.

Problem is, they're livin in young man time.

Me I'm livin in Old man time.

So take your time, I'll be over here a waitin long as I can.

After all, What's another 20yrs, I'll only be 90.

Lately I've been very conflicted, I'm literally having to be two people.
Banging away in the morning about Pez Outlaw.
Great displays of indignation, tweeting, tweeting, tweeting to thousands of views per day.
God, I honestly can't wait for the day that this is all over.

Kathy asked me yesterday. "What are you gonna do when the Pez Outlaw thing is Finished?"

Honey, He was never the Goal, only the means to an end.

My true goal is to just get up every day n work on the farm projects.

That n remove all the debt issues that stifle our lives.

The closer we get to the conclusion of the Pez Outlaw project, The more it seems that I'm able to breathe once again.

20yrs is a very long time to work on a single project.

As focused as I've had to be, some would say 20yrs of tunnel vision.

Whichever, I do pay attention to the world around me.

I worry about some folks who seem to be up against it n wonder how I survived the journey.

The difference I suppose is my farm life n all my animal friends.

Horses, Dogs n now Cats. All with distinct n very demanding personalities.

We interact in a very rich n rewarding way. I get a lot of peace from there friendship.

Dear animal friends pass n another steps forward to fill the void.

Add to that my projects.

I've got years n years of building n landscaping projects that I'm just dying to get going on.

My Life after Pez Outlaw is what I've been waiting my whole life to live.

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In the afternoon my attentions turn completely to the care of the animals.
I feed water n do manure, then we bring horses in n put the day to bed.
I walk alone now doing chores because my buddy Po is gone.
I feel her absence many times each day.

Disposition of horses has been on my mind a lot.
This morning Kathy said Smokey Boy was to riled up in the mornings so she'd walk Marnie Marie out.
That little turd Smokey was a perfect angel for me.
Other peoples kids I guess.

Here's the thing with Dogs n Horses, they are either good or bad at there cores.
A bad horse or dog is a bad horse or dog n what's the point.
A good horse or dog is just untrained.
Good horses n dogs will behave foolishly, throw tantrums n behave carelessly around you.

It's all about intent.
A good horse can accidentally kick you or bang your head with there's but it's just the byproduct of acting up or out.
A bad horse backs up to make sure there kick at you lands as they intended n there's no hope for that, another kind of trainer must teach that horse to submit.
Which means, Bad Horses or Dogs must go down the road.

I no longer deal with bad horses or dogs, my methods have changed.
I can deal with foolish, untrained or scared horses n dogs but not mean.
All respond well to that gentle stream that consistently flows through there lives.
Food, patience and lots of listening n talking to them.

I show up! Every day, day after day, year after year.
I can be counted on, I'm a constant within there lives.
For misbehaving I try desperately not to react n put bad on bad.

I am that immovable object that shows zero fear.
I must n do believe I'm a 10ft 1,000lb gorilla with a kind n patient heart.
I no longer must prove this to them because I now believe it myself.
Hitting, stomping etc is a sign of fear and insecurity.
If you are, you are n you don't have to prove it, the animal can sense it.

I've been taken round n round by a horse but guess what, when they run out of energy there I am still standing next to them.
This is more important than you think n counter to what all trainers will tell you.
Rule #1. If a horse goes wild on you let go.
Screw that, I rope up n we go for 15 or 20 minutes.
I'm done chasing horses down the road.

The girls have a thing where you lay a horse down to show dominance/submission.
I'm here to tell you that if a horse throws a tantrum for 15 minutes n guess what you're still on the other end of that rope when they run out of steam, well that's that n they see how pointless it was.

2 things on that.
I'm 1st talking about a good horse at it's core, a bad horse will kill you, Know The Difference.
If you're even still standing next to a bad horse instead of it being in a trailer headed down the road, you truly are screwed.
2nd is confidence, you can't be pretending that you can do this, that you can't must never even occur to you as a possibility.
A good horse at its core will never go 100% on you, maybe 80%.
A bad horse will immediately go from zero to 100% n that's on you for even keeping that horse around.

Win this test with a horse n it shouldn't come up again.
Before the horse felt alone n freaked out.
After, the horse respects you n will draw on your strength.

Scared horses are a completely nother thing n my specialty.
My first 2 were Roz n Gotcha, my latest is Wheezer.
I take 2 or 3 yrs n tech them to trust me.

Back to this morning and Smokey Boy.
Some animals just have a sense of dignity and goodness within them.
Bull Mastiffs have it and this morning I saw it in Smokey Boy.
The thing that I knew but could never put my finger on is his genuine sense of good, decency and intelligence.

Intelligence example about Smokey Boy.
On another occasion at night Kathy asked me to take him because the horses were all acting out due to wind n extreme cold.
I put his neck rope on then cradled his muzzle in both hands and asked him to be good and settle down for me.
Again he was an Angel, what a kind n decent horse. 

As you can see I've changed which is why I'm so conflicted about having to aggressively push The Pez Outlaw agenda every morning.
I can still do it n I will but it's starting to become very apparent to me that this is no longer who I am.
Please Jesus can this be over soon.

I repeatedly tell you n hollywood that when Pez Outlaw is finished I'm gone.
What does that mean?

My dreams are of carpentry now.
I want to put a 4ft tongue n groove kick wall on the south side of the arena and finally buid proper outdoor pens.
I need to put new roofs on 4 buildings.
Not to mentions a very large amount of dirt sand n gravel work.
These projects alone will take up half year or so.

So the truth is I won't have time anymore fore facebook n twitter.
The idea of that suits me just fine.
I like being Eb (Green Acres Reference) more than being Pez Outlaw.
I'm more than ready to give Pez Outlaw up to the history of Pez.  

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

Pez Outlaw Diary