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The Pez Outlaw Movie/Documentary is finnished.
Now I wait for people to decide who I am.
Character in a TV sitcom, Movie Star, Author, Maybe a even a Historical Figure.
God knows, Like I said people haven't decided.
You'd think 20yrs might be time enough.
Even the littlest of things takes so long.
I'm asked again to show patience, last time that cost me 5yrs.
Problem is, they're livin in young man time.
Me I'm livin in Old man time.
So take your time, I'll be over here a waitin long as I can.
After all, What's another 20yrs, I'll only be 90.
Lately I've been very conflicted, I'm literally having to be two people.
Banging away in the morning about Pez Outlaw.
Great displays of indignation, tweeting, tweeting, tweeting to thousands of views per day.
God, I honestly can't wait for the day that this is all over.
Banging away in the morning about Pez Outlaw.
Great displays of indignation, tweeting, tweeting, tweeting to thousands of views per day.
God, I honestly can't wait for the day that this is all over.
Kathy asked me yesterday. "What are you gonna do when the Pez Outlaw thing is Finished?"
Honey, He was never the Goal, only the means to an end.
My true goal is to just get up every day n work on the farm projects.
That n remove all the debt issues that stifle our lives.
The closer we get to the conclusion of the Pez Outlaw project, The more it seems that I'm able to breathe once again.
20yrs is a very long time to work on a single project.
As focused as I've had to be, some would say 20yrs of tunnel vision.
Whichever, I do pay attention to the world around me.
I worry about some folks who seem to be up against it n wonder how I survived the journey.
The difference I suppose is my farm life n all my animal friends.
Horses, Dogs n now Cats. All with distinct n very demanding personalities.
We interact in a very rich n rewarding way. I get a lot of peace from there friendship.
Dear animal friends pass n another steps forward to fill the void.
Add to that my projects.
I've got years n years of building n landscaping projects that I'm just dying to get going on.
My Life after Pez Outlaw is what I've been waiting my whole life to live.
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In the afternoon my attentions turn completely to the care of the animals.
I feed water n do manure, then we bring horses in n put the day to bed.
I walk alone now doing chores because my buddy Po is gone.
I feel her absence many times each day.
Disposition of horses has been on my mind a lot.
This morning Kathy said Smokey Boy was to riled up in the mornings so she'd walk Marnie Marie out.
That little turd Smokey was a perfect angel for me.
Other peoples kids I guess.
Here's the thing with Dogs n Horses, they are either good or bad at there cores.
A bad horse or dog is a bad horse or dog n what's the point.
A good horse or dog is just untrained.
Good horses n dogs will behave foolishly, throw tantrums n behave carelessly around you.
It's all about intent.
A good horse can accidentally kick you or bang your head with there's but it's just the byproduct of acting up or out.
A bad horse backs up to make sure there kick at you lands as they intended n there's no hope for that, another kind of trainer must teach that horse to submit.
Which means, Bad Horses or Dogs must go down the road.
I no longer deal with bad horses or dogs, my methods have changed.
I can deal with foolish, untrained or scared horses n dogs but not mean.
All respond well to that gentle stream that consistently flows through there lives.
Food, patience and lots of listening n talking to them.
I show up! Every day, day after day, year after year.
I can be counted on, I'm a constant within there lives.
For misbehaving I try desperately not to react n put bad on bad.
I am that immovable object that shows zero fear.
I must n do believe I'm a 10ft 1,000lb gorilla with a kind n patient heart.
I no longer must prove this to them because I now believe it myself.
Hitting, stomping etc is a sign of fear and insecurity.
If you are, you are n you don't have to prove it, the animal can sense it.
I've been taken round n round by a horse but guess what, when they run out of energy there I am still standing next to them.
This is more important than you think n counter to what all trainers will tell you.
Rule #1. If a horse goes wild on you let go.
Screw that, I rope up n we go for 15 or 20 minutes.
I'm done chasing horses down the road.
The girls have a thing where you lay a horse down to show dominance/submission.
I'm here to tell you that if a horse throws a tantrum for 15 minutes n guess what you're still on the other end of that rope when they run out of steam, well that's that n they see how pointless it was.
2 things on that.
I'm 1st talking about a good horse at it's core, a bad horse will kill you, Know The Difference.
If you're even still standing next to a bad horse instead of it being in a trailer headed down the road, you truly are screwed.
2nd is confidence, you can't be pretending that you can do this, that you can't must never even occur to you as a possibility.
A good horse at its core will never go 100% on you, maybe 80%.
A bad horse will immediately go from zero to 100% n that's on you for even keeping that horse around.
Win this test with a horse n it shouldn't come up again.
Before the horse felt alone n freaked out.
After, the horse respects you n will draw on your strength.
Scared horses are a completely nother thing n my specialty.
My first 2 were Roz n Gotcha, my latest is Wheezer.
I take 2 or 3 yrs n tech them to trust me.
Back to this morning and Smokey Boy.
Some animals just have a sense of dignity and goodness within them.
Bull Mastiffs have it and this morning I saw it in Smokey Boy.
The thing that I knew but could never put my finger on is his genuine sense of good, decency and intelligence.
Intelligence example about Smokey Boy.
On another occasion at night Kathy asked me to take him because the horses were all acting out due to wind n extreme cold.
I put his neck rope on then cradled his muzzle in both hands and asked him to be good and settle down for me.
Again he was an Angel, what a kind n decent horse.
As you can see I've changed which is why I'm so conflicted about having to aggressively push The Pez Outlaw agenda every morning.
I can still do it n I will but it's starting to become very apparent to me that this is no longer who I am.
Please Jesus can this be over soon.
I repeatedly tell you n hollywood that when Pez Outlaw is finished I'm gone.
What does that mean?
My dreams are of carpentry now.
I want to put a 4ft tongue n groove kick wall on the south side of the arena and finally buid proper outdoor pens.
I need to put new roofs on 4 buildings.
Not to mentions a very large amount of dirt sand n gravel work.
These projects alone will take up half year or so.
So the truth is I won't have time anymore fore facebook n twitter.
The idea of that suits me just fine.
I like being Eb (Green Acres Reference) more than being Pez Outlaw.
I'm more than ready to give Pez Outlaw up to the history of Pez.
Pez Outlaw Diary
I feed water n do manure, then we bring horses in n put the day to bed.
I walk alone now doing chores because my buddy Po is gone.
I feel her absence many times each day.
Disposition of horses has been on my mind a lot.
This morning Kathy said Smokey Boy was to riled up in the mornings so she'd walk Marnie Marie out.
That little turd Smokey was a perfect angel for me.
Other peoples kids I guess.
Here's the thing with Dogs n Horses, they are either good or bad at there cores.
A bad horse or dog is a bad horse or dog n what's the point.
A good horse or dog is just untrained.
Good horses n dogs will behave foolishly, throw tantrums n behave carelessly around you.
It's all about intent.
A good horse can accidentally kick you or bang your head with there's but it's just the byproduct of acting up or out.
A bad horse backs up to make sure there kick at you lands as they intended n there's no hope for that, another kind of trainer must teach that horse to submit.
Which means, Bad Horses or Dogs must go down the road.
I no longer deal with bad horses or dogs, my methods have changed.
I can deal with foolish, untrained or scared horses n dogs but not mean.
All respond well to that gentle stream that consistently flows through there lives.
Food, patience and lots of listening n talking to them.
I show up! Every day, day after day, year after year.
I can be counted on, I'm a constant within there lives.
For misbehaving I try desperately not to react n put bad on bad.
I am that immovable object that shows zero fear.
I must n do believe I'm a 10ft 1,000lb gorilla with a kind n patient heart.
I no longer must prove this to them because I now believe it myself.
Hitting, stomping etc is a sign of fear and insecurity.
If you are, you are n you don't have to prove it, the animal can sense it.
I've been taken round n round by a horse but guess what, when they run out of energy there I am still standing next to them.
This is more important than you think n counter to what all trainers will tell you.
Rule #1. If a horse goes wild on you let go.
Screw that, I rope up n we go for 15 or 20 minutes.
I'm done chasing horses down the road.
The girls have a thing where you lay a horse down to show dominance/submission.
I'm here to tell you that if a horse throws a tantrum for 15 minutes n guess what you're still on the other end of that rope when they run out of steam, well that's that n they see how pointless it was.
2 things on that.
I'm 1st talking about a good horse at it's core, a bad horse will kill you, Know The Difference.
If you're even still standing next to a bad horse instead of it being in a trailer headed down the road, you truly are screwed.
2nd is confidence, you can't be pretending that you can do this, that you can't must never even occur to you as a possibility.
A good horse at its core will never go 100% on you, maybe 80%.
A bad horse will immediately go from zero to 100% n that's on you for even keeping that horse around.
Win this test with a horse n it shouldn't come up again.
Before the horse felt alone n freaked out.
After, the horse respects you n will draw on your strength.
Scared horses are a completely nother thing n my specialty.
My first 2 were Roz n Gotcha, my latest is Wheezer.
I take 2 or 3 yrs n tech them to trust me.
Back to this morning and Smokey Boy.
Some animals just have a sense of dignity and goodness within them.
Bull Mastiffs have it and this morning I saw it in Smokey Boy.
The thing that I knew but could never put my finger on is his genuine sense of good, decency and intelligence.
Intelligence example about Smokey Boy.
On another occasion at night Kathy asked me to take him because the horses were all acting out due to wind n extreme cold.
I put his neck rope on then cradled his muzzle in both hands and asked him to be good and settle down for me.
Again he was an Angel, what a kind n decent horse.
As you can see I've changed which is why I'm so conflicted about having to aggressively push The Pez Outlaw agenda every morning.
I can still do it n I will but it's starting to become very apparent to me that this is no longer who I am.
Please Jesus can this be over soon.
I repeatedly tell you n hollywood that when Pez Outlaw is finished I'm gone.
What does that mean?
My dreams are of carpentry now.
I want to put a 4ft tongue n groove kick wall on the south side of the arena and finally buid proper outdoor pens.
I need to put new roofs on 4 buildings.
Not to mentions a very large amount of dirt sand n gravel work.
These projects alone will take up half year or so.
So the truth is I won't have time anymore fore facebook n twitter.
The idea of that suits me just fine.
I like being Eb (Green Acres Reference) more than being Pez Outlaw.
I'm more than ready to give Pez Outlaw up to the history of Pez.
After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.
Pez Outlaw Diary
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