Pez Outlaw At The Crossroads #pezoutlaw

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Lately, A thought persists.

You come into this life with nothing & you leave this life with nothing. With luck though you take your memories with you. So I try very hard not to dwell on the this & thats of life.

The money you make or don't make is of no real consequence.

That's what I tell myself anyway.

To be slited or thought of well, is of again no consequence.

We take with us a life lived as well as we could.

That after all was the challenge we were given at birth.

To do the best we can & help others with no expectation in return.

This is not about death, it is actually about Life.

Long ago when I was a very young child, my mother used to say to me.

"Life is full of things that you Don't wanna do."

I try to hide, Best I can. But these things always find me.

Chores in really bad weather is the worst.

Even the Puppy starts out really strong, then 10 minutes later even she has had enough.

My Mother was right. There are no days off or Quitting on a farm.

Like Darlin Girl Says. "Life is really Hard".

There is a price to pay when you are "Old as Croesus" & still have Best I know, Good Health.

Guy below is Croesus. You would also know him as "Rich as Croesus".

I've got the Old as. Can I have the Rich as?

We are all forged in the fire of the adversity of our lives.

Each of us will meet that moment that tests the results.

The tragedies in your life are not your life's story.

They just prepare you for what is yet to come.
The dreams you refuse to let die are your life's story.
The isolation of that belief in yourself is your story.
The refusal to surrender your dreams to a reality you reject is your story.

Today while walking behind the lawn mower, this is the conversation I had with myself.
Do poor n middle class folks face different moral decisions than White collar n rich.
Do some of us not have the luxury of high moral standards?

This came up because I was imagining being interviewed by a reporter for the movie about Pez Outlaw that saw my behavior in a dim light.
I'd have no problem with his view, but what would be my answer.
I arrived at the previous statement.

It was once said to me that "This could have been so much easier".
I can see how that might or would be true with anyone else.
Is it even possible for something to happen differently than it did.
People are complicated, many factors influence the path we must walk. 
With others I'm sure this could've been easier.
If Pez Outlaw were/was other people though you'd never have asked.

Recently I spent the night wandering the streets of an inner city.

My Bodyguard commented Later.

"I had one Job, to keep an eye on him n I lost him."

When told that I was in an alley somewhere, he was mortified.

Have I mentioned that I don't have a drivers license?

Yet there I was driving round n round the Cop Shop?????

In the past 5yrs I've had 7 offers to join the circus.

Then my old friends from 5yrs ago also contacted me.

I have mixed feelings about the latter.

We parted ways on not so good of terms???

I wonder if we shouldn't wait, see who else might be interested.

I............ I've worked 20yrs on this, I can wait another year.

When Jeff Maysh wrote his story about Pez Outlaw for Playboy I was promised Pez Outlaw Diary would be mentioned in it. It was not.

Then I was told to leave it up as a resource.

I want my work to be respected n get the credit that it's due.

At 74 I find myself at a crossroads in life.
yrs ago I started this post.

The Oscar winning movie producer/movie deal and The Star writer (Playboy Pez Outlaw story) had just walked away n broke off all lines of communication.

I felt everything I'd worked 17yrs for crumble under my feet.

Instinctively I just put my head down n went back to work.

I will admit it was probably the lowest point for me in the Pez Outlaw project.

Then

Tina Christison Gunsauls

re-entered my life (we were at 1 week from foreclosure on the farm} with generosity n support on a very big scale, Tina changed everything. I'm not sure that even Tina knows how important she has been.

A Spanish Documentarian expressed interest in the story.

I attended my 1st convention in 20yrs as Tina's guest, it went very well.

In the last 1yr period 3 more documentary film makers approached me about the Pez Outlaw story.

To be honest I'm kinda surprised how things have worked out.

I've had to question my motives n adjust my behavior.

I now believe That I enjoyed the fight n struggle a bit to much, meaning that I self sabotaged the BIG MOVIE DEAL so I could go back to fighting.

Sometimes there are things that must be said, even if it embarrasses you to acknowledge them. When Pez Outlaw is a success

Tina Christison Gunsauls

deserves a very big "THANK YOU DARLIN" from the bottom of my heart & I want the world to know it.

My biggest challenge is that the fight has been all I've known for over 20yrs, I'm not sure that I know who I am or what to do without it.

I've got a 5yr plan but as nuts as it might sound, I will miss getting up every day n putting in the hours of work to gain visibility for the Pez Outlaw Story.

I honestly don't know who I am without it.

  

Eventually there will be a ton of pictures here when I'm told it's ok.

Opening shot.
10yr old boy being dragged by a teacher to the classroom closet.
The boy is pushed into darkness & the door is closed.
A light comes on & it's that same boy in a 4ftx4ft cell (the Hole) in a county jail.
Sudden violent turbulence & the passenger on a tiny plane flying from Austria to Slovenia wakes up wondering what had led him to that moment in time.

The in between is a composite of the adventures of Pez Outlaw, his rise n fall.
Followed by the 2 decades of struggle to get Pez outlaw made into a movie.
The story is the struggle, the belief of a person in themselves.
3 decades of belief.


Closing Shot.
Camera to the back of an old man in the dark watching a lit stage of a movie about his life being made.


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Pez Outlaw, The Sockology of Cell Phones #pezoutlaw

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People talk about cell phones & carriers.

I don't have a clue, Personally I have the tin can & string plan.

A line outage to me is when Lucy dog chews the string or Jelly cat jumps it because he thinks it's funny.

I want to share a secret with you. One of the many quirks I have is that I wear 3 pairs of socks, 1 pair over the other every day. I can't explain this to you, I just do.

This is said to help you understand.  Do's n Don'ts of Socks If you have 2 socks n one is softer than the other one, which foot does the softer sock go on? The right foot is the correct answer. That this matters is the point. If I do not put the softer sock on my right foot it will bother the hell out of me till I correct it.  

Cell Phones

My entire adult life, I have despised telephones. They just annoy the hell out of me, what an absolute waste of time. I even ripped a wall phone off the wall n threw it out the back door once. That was back when I was young n didn't control my temper well.

I do not talk on cell phones or any other type of telephone. 
In the 1990s when I sold PEZ I talked on them all the time. I had no choice. 
To tell the truth though I had to speak so cryptically about my business, it would've been better n easier if I hadn't.
Now though, I just find them an annoying intrusion on my life.

I do own a flip type cell phone but I never turn it on, it's only for emergencies.
Update.
Kathy turned off my cell phone because she was paying for a phone that NEVER EVER was turned on. That was 5yrs ago, I never noticed.

I can't tell you the number of people who are annoyed thinking that of course they should be an exception to my rule.

Friends for 20+ years. No.

My older brother after the Playboy story came out was very pissed because kathy told him that I would not talk to him on her phone.

Unnamed people concerning Pez Outlaw Diary n unnameable things about it. Very annoyed that surely they should be exceptions to the rule. Like somehow it's only for the story, surely not a real thing. No.

You are who you are. Don't fight the things others think are crazy, just get them done so you can move on.

Mirror Mirror On The Wall.
Whose The Fairest Of Us All? 

Things I Like

 
For several years when I was younger Kathy covered all the mirrors in the house with towels for me.
The reason was that it really messed up my head to look at myself.
I do not look at myself in the mirror, if I accidentally catch a glimpse, I block it out.

I avoid anyone who wants to take a picture of me and I don't look at pictures of myself.
I do sit for Christmas  family photo's, it's a tradition in Kathy's family.
Because it's important to Kathy I do it, but I don't look at them.

I prefer not to be referred to by any name, especially steven. 
You know how you speak to someone when you can't remember there name. 
Buddy, Hey or just plain ignoring any name, that's how I like it.

If you use my name, you sorta already pissed me off. 
I get over it, but it make things awkward for a minute. 
I know, what a whack job, if only that was all of it.

I dislike any form of external reference to myself that I'm exposed to.
The article in April 2015 Playboy, nope never read it.
The Movie, won't watch it. I will help write the book, but won't read it. 

Unlike photo's I do want the Movie and the Book and will help in any way I can to make them happen.
N yes if photo's are needed in or to promote the Movie n the Book, of course I will allow it.
As long as I don't have to look at them. 

All this boils down to my need for an abstract non entity that I project from.
I want no self image or markers to be labeled as or from.
I would prefer my thoughts, what I say n how I act are the only way I am viewed.

Mirrors, photo's n names are negatives n distractions from the inner me.
To me my mind is everything n the only thing I want to project.
My mind is the only thing I want to be remembered.

I'm not concerned with how others view me, it to is only a distraction.
Though I do accept that the perception of me by others is valid.
I do not argue with it, but your perception is yours not mine.

I've stated before that reality is a mutually agreed upon construct.
One that I don't necessarily agree with, I just play along.
To defy the agreed upon reality would mean self destruction.

That's why I think that there will be a Pez Outlaw movie.
You know, Why not.
To others it's, Oh that would never happen to someone like me.

Hell I'm not even sure any of this is real, so why not a Pez Outlaw Movie.
One thing is certain, none of this is real or important after I'm dead, so again Why Not a Pez Outlaw movie.
After all, Who remembers the first guy that brought down a Mastodon n that was a pretty big deal at the time.

Well that didn't get me locked on twitter.
So far, so good.
Fingers crossed.

There are things I'm told I should not like, to be honest I just don't care. 
Actually they make me laugh.



I have absolutely no interest in what I look like. For the record it's Santa Claus. I'm much more interested in a pure presentation to the world of myself not a physical presentation.

Inner strength, self confidence etc.

My  grand-kids squabble, one cries out she says i'm or should must do x, y or z.
How different this is from myself as a child. Someone said I was or had to do x, y or z.
My answer was always a defiant NO!

Nobody told me anything when I was a kid. I'd figure it out for myself, thank you very much.
Nothing has changed.



Technology

Kathy once bought a cordless telephone for her mother. Her mother refused to use it. After seeing most of the 20th centuries changes in technology, she had had enough change.

In the 1980s n early 1990s I was very geeked out by technology at the time, I loved it. I even had one of the early bag type cell phones, then paid tons for the first clam shell type phones.

Well like my mother in-law I'm now done. My current cell phone is a flip phone & I never turn it on.

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I use & say this phrase in reference to the 25yrs I have lived in Purgatory Trying to regain the life that was stolen from me by Pez Corporation.

I spent 20yrs of my life building a Business That earned eventually 4.5 million Dollars by 2001. In 1998 I invested 1/2 million dollars in legitimate pez product from Pez Corporation. I was promise all this product would stay exclusive to me. Only to have Pez USA duplicate every bit of it to start there 1st Pez Website.

I lost everything. All the years of work to get there & my 1/2 million dollar investment.

I spent the next 25yrs in a Finacial Purgatory, in many years Extreme poverty. We almost lost the farm several times, in one case within a week of it happening.

There is a popular country song that has a line that says it all.

"Getting back up, is the only backup plan you need".

When everything that you worked for is taken from you, the road back is very long & difficult. People around you think you are crazy & that your choice to keep going against unbelievable odds is foolish.

Everyone said I should quit, move on & let it go. I just couldn't.

So I use the word Purgatory to describe the past 25yrs.

#FreePezOutlaw

Post Script.

No matter what wonderful things may happen Like the Pez Outlaw Movie etc. Mom & I will never be the same. Those 25yrs scarred us much like our Depression Era Grandparents.

We stay very nervous about money.

We tend to not trust happy words about Beautiful things to come.

We live modestly.

Personally. I have gone from an outgoing person in the 1990s to a recluse. I rarely leave our Farm.

That is not to say we are unhappy, But we have changed.

Life tends to do that.

The Tonight Show w/ Pez Outlaw #pezoutlaw

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Did you know that there is a Johnny Carson Tonight show channel on Dish network.

092-13 = The Tonight Show with Johnny Carson.

092-14 = The Carol Burnette channel.

Both are 24-7 channels dedicated to each show.

Every since Johnny retired I've thought that Johnny Carson could have run each night at 11pm on a channel.

So I was very happy to find this channel.

These are very obscure channels on Dish Network.

Channels 090-00 to 098-00, all have drop lists of what's on these streaming??? channels. It's free. example. You click 092-00 & say a dozen sub channels appear with what's on them.

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Johnny Carson would've loved this picture.
I bet he'da booked me if he could've.

Standing in the wings waiting to go out on stage for an appearance on the Tonight Show to promote the Pez Outlaw Movie.

Brief aside:
Johnny Carson was the best that there ever was as a latenight host, nobody today even comes close.
I do though see Glimmers n Flickers of Johnny Carson in Greg Gutfeld.
Greg Gutfeld is the only host of this type that I actually laugh while watching.
My brother n I watched Johnny Carson in the 1960s, even on school nights.
I can't tell you why, possibly the Wit but Greg Gutfeld reminds me of Johnny Carson.


This post is about being true to yourself.

I may not leave the farm much but I do watch TV.
I see normal people who go on TV.
What I notice over n over is. If there not wearing there ill fitting funeral suit, they're wearing there best shirt.
To me neither is being true to yourself. You should not be ashamed to let the whole world see you as the people around you see you. 

That's why if I'm ever asked to be on the Tonight Show or do any personal appearances to promote a Pez Outlaw Movie. They will get the same person that the people around me see.
That means no funeral suit or best shirt. I'll wear my sweatshirts, jeans, muddy work boots n I don't wear my teeth for the folks around me so I won't wear them then either.

You should not be ashamed of who you are no matter what stage you're on and to me trying hard to dress up n not getting there is a betrayal of yourself.
You are never going to look as  good as the TV folks that you might talk to n trying but failing is just sad.
So, be yourself. The fraying and holes in my cloths are not something I'm ashamed of, they are the scars of  hard work.
Some of my jeans are like the jeans TV folks pay hundreds of dollars for, except the holes in my jeans are earned. I call it Hay Knee, from kicking hay bales up on the pile.

I'm proud of who I am and I will not insult that pride by trying to be something I'm not.
You want to talk to me, you get me, not some poor soul trying to fit into your world.
I come from my world n I gotta go back to my world.

Though if the Tonight Show gave me a suit to wear I think it would be a good gag to wheel the hanging suit out with me like another guest when I appeared. Then they could interview the suit and me.

I also think it would be a good gag for the Tonight Show host to do a short video of taking me out to buy me cloths and to a tailor for fitting. Then showing the finished product, jeans n a cut up sweatshirt. Hoodie, Hood cut off, sleeves cut to below elbows over another sweatshirt.

My point is this.
Be true to who you are.
If you like yourself, don't try to be something your not in front of others.
If that's not true, you don't like yourself and are not comfortable with who you are then dentures and a funeral suit are not going to fix it.

My hero when I was a child was Gabby Hayes and he still is. Google Him.

By the way, my Tonight Show appearance was a big success. 
I had no idea who the host was but who cares, it was fun.

What's the secret to your success?
You just keep grinding away at it every day, having faith that you will get there way past where most people would just give up. It takes a massive amount of determination.

At least that's the way it happened in my head. OOOH! Craft time, gotta go.

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I choose crazy over submission #pezoutlaw

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Defying Gravity

Life is the Blink of an eye.

At 73, I look back at 5yr old me.

The journy has been colorful, to say the least.

I have gotten to where I accept pretty big things.

After all there is Him & then there is me.

At times I feel as though I am moving Him around like a piece on a game board.

Just shows to go you, work at something for near 25yrs & something might just come of it.

My job is to Live each day best I can & keep tabs on Him.

Gotta be careful, Don't want him getting outa hand or playing in the road.

Let's see, Daily check.

Brain, well OK. That'll Do.

Body, Well OK that'll do.

Job 1. Keep goin & Defying Gravity.

There are days I feel like an observer not a participant in my life.

I choose crazy over submission and mediocrity. Being crazy, nuts, wacko ain't the glamorous life it's made out to be. It's actually, exhausting.

It's said that the line between genius and crazy is thin.

As the majority shareholder in my sanity, I'd like to issue the following report to the other shareholders.
Your recent attempts at a hostile takeover have failed.

Reality is a mutually agreed upon construct. To deviate from that compact is to become non-compliant, CRAZY.

There is a Trick To Crazy. Be quirky, eccentric or sympathetic crazy. Do not cross the line to annoying, tiresome, scary or evil crazy. 

Perspective.

This is said to help you understand. If you have 2 socks n one is softer than the other one, which foot does the softer sock go on? The right foot is the correct answer. That this matters is the point, if I do not put the softer sock on my right foot it will bother the hell out of me till I correct it. You are who you are. Don't fight the things others think are crazy, just get them done so you can move on.

How do I explain the price to a mind in desperation.
What appears of unique value had a cost of decades.

The pain is well hidden but should be cherished.
Wisdom is gained through the survival of adversity.

Treat what you are labeled with by others as your tool box.
Your view of this world is unique, a perspective unattainable by others.

Cherish who you are, don't allow others to define you.

Pocket Cookies

I want a T-shirt that says, "Do I Have To Care?"

Robot Solutions, What could possibly go wrong?

My Dog Proby knows Apples grow on trees, so of course cookies must grow in my pants pocket, because that's where she always sees me get them from.

On a different note.

I got to wear Big Boy pants for 2 whole days because the weather was in the 70s. To my disappointment the temp & humidity went back up, so back to shorts.

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Lifelock

Glanced at this picture (Left) on facebook & first impression/1st thought. Oh look at that, they did a new Yosemite Sam. I looked harder because I couldn't figure out why they segmented his mustache. Only then did I realize that it wasn't Yosemite Sam??? Either I see things in abstract or is that old bandito Yosemite Sam a victim of identity theft. 

One Word Yos LifeLock

Now that I've said it out loud, tell me that you don't see Yosemite Sam every time you look at this "Angry Bird?? Pez".

I guess that this proves what I've always said. "I'm not good with faces".

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A few weeks ago young Smokey (horse) cut his foot. This meant he had to be in his stall for a couple of weeks. While he was on stall rest I prepared a small dirt lot for the rest of his confinement.

Today while I was out there picking up all his poop from the dirt lot, Smokey came over and took a big ole dump. As Smokey walked away I could hear him muttering under his breath. "Be all you can be Buddy, Be all you can be".

That guy never misses an opportunity to screw with me.

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Roid-Rage Mouse

For most people when you have issues in your life it would concern another person, most likely a neighbor. My world is very different, I have more contact with animals than I do other Humans. My stories are almost always about animals.

The new old man here on the farm is a 30yr old horse named tenney/10y.  Old 10y is on a very expensive supplement powder, something like $200 a quart can. Every day at 3pm I prep 10y's grain with 1 tiny scoop of this powder on top. That's when the other 5 horses get there grain. This bowl of grain sits on top of a cabinet until 5:30pm when 10y comes in for the night.

For about a month or so I've notice this 1 little mouse who gets up there and eats a tiny bit of 10y's grain. The thing is, this tiny little mouse is getting a bit aggressive. I'm beginning to think that little mouse has Roid-Rage.

Like I said. If you were dealing with Roid-Rage it would be some big guy at the Gym. Me, I'm dealing with a Roid-Rage Mouse.

I'm ready for my closeup C.B.

Let's make this Pez Convention the Best ever.

Bring Your Pez Outlaw Playboy Magazines, I'd be happy to sign them for you. Free Free Free.

I'm a month behind schedule roofing house n garage. +3 inches rain this spring.
so, I can only be at the Michigan Pez convention 2hrs on Friday June 21 n all day on Saturday June 22

I really hope as many attendees to the forum as possible livestream it on facebook. The Documentary guy needs the footage. Friday 4pm - 6pm - John Devlin, Tina Christison Gunsauls, and the famous Steve Glew aka Pez Outlaw will take the stage for a 2 hour Question & Answer session! What an honor to have 3 amazing Pez collectors who have changed our hobby in so many ways take the stage together at the Michigan Pez Convention!

The Pez Outlaw Documentary Film maker in Britain wants a list of all the uploaded footage links from the Michigan Pez Convention.

I don't ask questions, the guy says he needs all footage links from the Michigan Pez Convention to help make n sell the Documentary, I just say you betcha. modern way of doing things I guess. cell phones as good as they are makes crowd sourcing footage much more efficient than hiring a crew n traveling here to Michigan from Britain.

I really messed up with Warner Brothers when I talked about there proposed movie, but I just don't know how I get links for footage of us at the Michigan Pez convention unless I ask you to take the footage, livestream, youtube it etc. then ask for links.

I just don't know how I do that without publicly asking you.
Hell, I'm not making any money so far so who cares.

I gotta tell you though, this documentary guy from Britain is pretty cool though. unlike the Warner brothers thing where shaping the story was the goal, he accepts the reality of Pez Outlaw. Like he n it are what they are. Just the facts mam. It will live or die on its own merits.

Just saying if you want to be in a possible movie / documentary. You might want to attend the Michigan Pez Convention.

The truth is that by your participation you could help make all this happen.

If the footage of The Michigan Pez Convention is good enough, it alone could sell this project.

20 years of work n by Gods Grace you & your camera phones could just be that big last push that puts it over the top.

Lets all give this 100% n make it happen.

If you state your dreams out loud, does it jinx them?

Phase one. The Documentary.

Phase two. The Pez Outlaw Book.

Phase three. The Pez Outlaw Hollywood Movie.

I'm only looking for 2 paydays, The Book n The Hollywood Movie.

That's why everything I do n let others do leading up to those 2 paydays, I do for free.

While you are at the Michigan Pez Convention Don't forget to get your Pez Outlaw T shirt.

The 1st Pez Outlaw tshirt will be available at the Michigan Pez Convention from Tina Christison Gunsauls at the very low price of $10.00 ea.

Tina Christison Gunsauls just printed up this T shirt

Tina is selling the Pez Outlaw t shirt for $10.00 plus shipping

contact her here on facebook

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100 Pez Outlaw posters at $10 each will be available from Lacey Ash at the Michigan pez convention. Just bring them by n I'd be happy to sign them for you absolutely FREE. Lacey Ash 

I can't wait to sign it for you.

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire. Pez Corporate Fraud, Pez Color War, Restitution.

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