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Lately, A thought persists.
You come into this life with nothing & you leave this life with nothing. With luck though you take your memories with you. So I try very hard not to dwell on the this & thats of life.
The money you make or don't make is of no real consequence.
That's what I tell myself anyway.
To be slited or thought of well, is of again no consequence.
We take with us a life lived as well as we could.
That after all was the challenge we were given at birth.
To do the best we can & help others with no expectation in return.
This is not about death, it is actually about Life.
Long ago when I was a very young child, my mother used to say to me.
"Life is full of things that you Don't wanna do."
Chores in really bad weather is the worst.
Even the Puppy starts out really strong, then 10 minutes later even she has had enough.
My Mother was right. There are no days off or Quitting on a farm.
Like Darlin Girl Says. "Life is really Hard".
There is a price to pay when you are "Old as Croesus" & still have Best I know, Good Health.
Guy below is Croesus. You would also know him as "Rich as Croesus".
I've got the Old as. Can I have the Rich as?
We are all forged in the fire of the adversity of our lives.
Each of us will meet that moment that tests the results.
The tragedies in your life are not your life's story.
They just prepare you for what is yet to come.
The dreams you refuse to let die are your life's story.
The isolation of that belief in yourself is your story.
The refusal to surrender your dreams to a reality you reject is your story.
Today while walking behind the lawn mower, this is the conversation I had with myself.
Do poor n middle class folks face different moral decisions than White collar n rich.
Do some of us not have the luxury of high moral standards?
This came up because I was imagining being interviewed by a reporter for the movie about Pez Outlaw that saw my behavior in a dim light.
I'd have no problem with his view, but what would be my answer.
I arrived at the previous statement.
It was once said to me that "This could have been so much easier".
I can see how that might or would be true with anyone else.
Is it even possible for something to happen differently than it did.
People are complicated, many factors influence the path we must walk.
With others I'm sure this could've been easier.
If Pez Outlaw were/was other people though you'd never have asked.
The dreams you refuse to let die are your life's story.
The isolation of that belief in yourself is your story.
The refusal to surrender your dreams to a reality you reject is your story.
Today while walking behind the lawn mower, this is the conversation I had with myself.
Do poor n middle class folks face different moral decisions than White collar n rich.
Do some of us not have the luxury of high moral standards?
This came up because I was imagining being interviewed by a reporter for the movie about Pez Outlaw that saw my behavior in a dim light.
I'd have no problem with his view, but what would be my answer.
I arrived at the previous statement.
It was once said to me that "This could have been so much easier".
I can see how that might or would be true with anyone else.
Is it even possible for something to happen differently than it did.
People are complicated, many factors influence the path we must walk.
With others I'm sure this could've been easier.
If Pez Outlaw were/was other people though you'd never have asked.
Recently I spent the night wandering the streets of an inner city.
My Bodyguard commented Later.
"I had one Job, to keep an eye on him n I lost him."
When told that I was in an alley somewhere, he was mortified.
Have I mentioned that I don't have a drivers license?
Yet there I was driving round n round the Cop Shop?????
In the past 5yrs I've had 7 offers to join the circus.
Then my old friends from 5yrs ago also contacted me.
I have mixed feelings about the latter.
We parted ways on not so good of terms???
I wonder if we shouldn't wait, see who else might be interested.
I............ I've worked 20yrs on this, I can wait another year.
When Jeff Maysh wrote his story about Pez Outlaw for Playboy I was promised Pez Outlaw Diary would be mentioned in it. It was not.
Then I was told to leave it up as a resource.
I want my work to be respected n get the credit that it's due.
At 74 I find myself at a crossroads in life.
yrs ago I started this post.
yrs ago I started this post.
The Oscar winning movie producer/movie deal and The Star writer (Playboy Pez Outlaw story) had just walked away n broke off all lines of communication.
I felt everything I'd worked 17yrs for crumble under my feet.
Instinctively I just put my head down n went back to work.
I will admit it was probably the lowest point for me in the Pez Outlaw project.
Then
Tina Christison Gunsauls
re-entered my life (we were at 1 week from foreclosure on the farm} with generosity n support on a very big scale, Tina changed everything. I'm not sure that even Tina knows how important she has been.A Spanish Documentarian expressed interest in the story.
I attended my 1st convention in 20yrs as Tina's guest, it went very well.
In the last 1yr period 3 more documentary film makers approached me about the Pez Outlaw story.
To be honest I'm kinda surprised how things have worked out.
I've had to question my motives n adjust my behavior.
I now believe That I enjoyed the fight n struggle a bit to much, meaning that I self sabotaged the BIG MOVIE DEAL so I could go back to fighting.
Sometimes there are things that must be said, even if it embarrasses you to acknowledge them. When Pez Outlaw is a success
Tina Christison Gunsauls
deserves a very big "THANK YOU DARLIN" from the bottom of my heart & I want the world to know it.My biggest challenge is that the fight has been all I've known for over 20yrs, I'm not sure that I know who I am or what to do without it.
I've got a 5yr plan but as nuts as it might sound, I will miss getting up every day n putting in the hours of work to gain visibility for the Pez Outlaw Story.
I honestly don't know who I am without it.
Opening shot.
10yr old boy being dragged by a teacher to the classroom closet.
The boy is pushed into darkness & the door is closed.
A light comes on & it's that same boy in a 4ftx4ft cell (the Hole) in a county jail.
Sudden violent turbulence & the passenger on a tiny plane flying from Austria to Slovenia wakes up wondering what had led him to that moment in time.
The in between is a composite of the adventures of Pez Outlaw, his rise n fall.
Followed by the 2 decades of struggle to get Pez outlaw made into a movie.
The story is the struggle, the belief of a person in themselves.
3 decades of belief.
Closing Shot.
Camera to the back of an old man in the dark watching a lit stage of a movie about his life being made.
After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.
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