Pez Outlaw, If Wishes Were Horses #pezoutlaw

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Mystic Pez Outlaw

Today while making my daily pilgrimage to the throne of wisdom I realized something profound.

I really don't care anymore about much of anything.

Youthful proclamations of a deeply held beliefs and opinions about everything, are gone.

For 20 years now I've been slipping these notes under the door with no clue what becomes of them.

That said, from the confines of this room "for my protection" I've gotta tell you I'm rather pleased with my progress.

When you accept truth

There is pain

Truth also brings freedom

Gone are smiles that hide anger

20yrs of work disregarded

A lifetime reduced to a fairytale

Words only have meaning if you recognize them.

Rejection is an old friend.

My first lesson was no.

The faction that initiated the action is no longer a factor. 

With discretion I am released from my bonds, new hope is in the air.

After 5 years I'm letting an unrequited love go.

Silence, A show of good faith 

I will not talk in class

Darkness my reward

Lessons learned as a child

Repeated throughout

Life becomes memory

The look, the action

New to you, deja vu to me

Shallow praise followed by rejection

Whispers poison the well

Allegiances shift with the wind

Startled by the loss, what remains is the truth

I can't control your perception of reality

That belongs to you

I must accept it as your truth 

Random moods

A moment here, a moment there

Time is as one

With all my heart I wanted to believe

My devotion was spurned

With new hope I choose a new direction.

Funny how life sneaks up on you.

When you least expect it something new approaches.

First you resist because it's easier to follow an old path than strike out anew.

Once I embraced the new possibility, I found it very refreshing.

No more fantasy, just the truth.

I love fantasy, but even I didn't recognize him.

The separation will make old barriers unimportant.

How many oceans must you cross to remove bias?

Through what lens do you look to see truth.

I begin the journey again.

Hope fuels my dreams.

I have no answer to why I continue.  

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Unrelated

In my years selling Pez as Pez Outlaw I'd venture to say that I sold 1 of about everything that existed at the time. At leas 1 of ea.

I think I sold roughly 2 Make A Faces, 1 loose n 1 MOC.

The loose one went fine but boy did I hate that one that was MOC.

The MOC Make A Face that I sold was probably the hardest thing to sell that I ever had.

I barely broke even on the darn thing. Needless to say I'm not a Make A Face fanboy.

I had to reduce the price n I believe throw in a Black Santa to get rid of the $#%? thing.

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Signing Pez

Kathy says, $9.95 signed. $19.95 unsigned.

God I love her.

There already signed though, no take-backs.

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

Pez Corporate Fraud, Pez Color War, Restitution.

Pie in the sky.
Livin on dreams 
Roles to play.
Wishing I could take the burden.

Tightly gripping the edge.
Dreaming of sounder ground.
Redemption just out of reach.

Hold the dream close.

Pez Outlaw, 2 Worlds #pezoutlaw

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I walk between two worlds. Pez Outlaws world and the simple life I live here on the farm. 
3 hours, mornings, are spent working here on the computer promoting Pez Outlaw.
The rest of my productive hours, afternoons, are spent feeding watering the horses and general farm work.

Once Pez Outlaw is a success, I plan to leave him behind and turn to the farm full time.
So getting Pez Outlaw strong enough so that he can stand on his own is my goal right now.

To be honest with you all these people that are working on what I'm not allowed to talk about have gone silent. I hear nothing and nobody is contacting me in any fashion anymore.
Though I knew going in that it could be between 1 and 3 years.

You know it's just one of those deals where everybody is your best buddy until you sign all the contracts. Then, well then buddy your on your own again.

Though I'm not sure I care anymore.
The intensity of the fight that was all consuming for over ten years has left me.
I want this to work but I'm not sure I care as much as I did a decade ago.

For 15 years almost in one way or another I have been writing about Pez Outlaw.
Nothing changed within me until I started writing here in Notes From The Asylum.
I have found more peace over the whole Pez thing in 5 months writing in Notes From The Asylum than I did in a decade writing in Pez Outlaw Diary.

I view it as it took the Diary for me to be able to get to the Asylum.
Long story short, I'm in a better place now, thanks to the Asylum.
Instead of being upset about something that happened, I'm daily looking inward and reflecting on things.
Not to mention that Notes From The Asylum is more rewarding.

Well there you go, that's my deal for today.

I always follow back after someone follows me on twitter.
I always friend back on facebook.
except pages I consider not in good taste.

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

new profile pic captures my essence

Pez Outlaw Diary

Pez Outlaw, Perspective #pezoutlaw

 

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You are where you are.

As the Pez Outaw Movie is released interviews crop up.

You are asked to tell Bits about the story, problem is this has been a 20 to 25 year journey n at this point I'm reflecting on the road traveled to get here.

I'm asked to tell stories.

My best story McHookers is untellable. It falls flat every time. You would think a story about Hookers at McDonalds would be funny. 

For me at my best, Life is a cartoon.

Life is a journey, when you are lucky it shocks you. Mine has exceded anything I could imagine many times  I am very fortunate but it has a price, everything does. You trade decades for each big win. In each win so far though I get almost a decade to live my wildest dream.

I can't emphasize enough how people like me n where I come from don't get movies made about them, we watch movies n dream.

The road from shooting heroine to this movie is very long. 

My story is every middle class n poor persons dream. My win shows them that there not crazy n to quit listening to people that tell them its not possible. Like, Oh Yeah well he did it n he's nuts, so why not me/them.  I'm one of them n they see n know that .

I show all my scars so they know that i'm not a pretender. You want to reach poor n middle class folks my story is there story. 

My 4 brothers are Flabbergasted I think that A movie was made about me. I was the screw up, always in trouble n in need of rescue. So how in Gods name did he end up here? 

The line in my writing is the Key. At that point I realized that I had One last thing to sell, MY STORY. My whole life led me here n prepared me for this.

There is a point to this statement.

The road from shooting heroine to this movie is very long.

I don't care how far you are down, There is a road back.

Even more with a great deal of hard work n dedication, you can even accomplish the impossible.

There is always Hope.

I found Bottom so many times, yet somehow Hope stayed alive within me.

Honestly I have no idea how you can fail so many times in life, then Fight your way back after each one.

Truly there is only one answer Mom, Darlin Girl, Kathy.

 I'm at heart a storyteller. Its up to others which ones are any good

You ever notice how you struggle to get somewhere n when you get there all sorts of folks wanna sell you maps.

Wanna share something personal.

I've been dissapointed with/by people I do business with so many times that it's more the rule than the exception. Then you meet the exceptions to that rule. Bryan Storkel n Amy Bandlien Storkel have never let me down. You get to that point where it ussually happens n nope just good news.

I really don't know how to explain this, it's such an exception. Good decent Honest people with Kind hearts. I truly love them both n it's been a pleasure working with them. My only regret is that we can't do the whole thing all over again.

I would be remiss if I did'nt mention that other exception to this rule, Larry Mason. I've never met a nicer person with such a giving heart.

After such a long struggle, that I feared I might not see the end of.

I have been Blessed with so many good friends.

Thank you Tina Christison Gunsauls for leading me out of the Darkness. A writer once asked me a why/who question for the millionth time. I told him when in doubt it was Tina.

The 2 Pez Outlaws Larry Mason n I are working on right now for a September release will reflect the Duality of Life Itself. / Ying n Yang.

How we strive for a humble life n how people that see you each day, see one person.

Then circumstances call for your ID or alter ego to emerge.

A reflection of the moment, 2 polar opposite Pez Outlaws.

To be clear. Pez Outlaw is as much a part of me as my other life. But he is not always there. He has never not shown up when I need him n I thank God For That.

Being a Diagnosed Schizophrenic can be useful.

You can obsess about something, which gets the job done.

And you can ignore it at the same time, which saves your sanity.

nobody is getting out of this alive.

we all stick our hands in the bowl to see what our ticket is gonna be.

mine is to simplify, crazy. moms is parkinsons. a friends is cancer. another persons is dimentia.

look i'm not trying to depress you, i want to show you something.

how mom n i deal with everything. we get up each day thank god for another day. take inventory n say okay thats where we are today.

my strategy is to have goals n projects that will take 5, 10 n 15 years to finnish.

we press the boundaries, use it or lose it.

so when i joke about this or that its not meant to minimize that thing. its to try n move beyond the obsticle.

laugh, joke, n hard work.

this post was prompted by my joke about, once around the bowl goldfish memory, then hearing that someone i know has dimentia.

this day, this moment, live it. the rest is tomorrows problem.

The Joke was a Gold fish reference to memory.

I was tellin Darlin Girl, " Once around The Bowl n it's all Gone".

About Myself.

Life Is A Cartoon.

A moment is all we get.
It's never enough.

The Bathroom Scales are on a Time Out in the hallway.

My Hair has been a bit depressed.
We got a lot of Jumpers.

#Beardstrong

Work Keeps gettin in the way of my Lazy.

Sometimes you have to earn your Lazy.

My brain hates repetition.

It starts to mess with me to get even.

There are rules to Bubble wrap.

I allow myself 1 bubble per sheet.

To pop more would be over indulgent.

Saw the optomotrist yesterday.

Told her my joke about having a bad 20yrs.

as to why she hadn't seen me in 2 decades.

She politely laughed.

I am not responsible for yesterday n day befores posts.

SUPER MOON!

My depresions swing with the full moon n that was a Doozie. Wolfman jokes are OK! If there is a Depessed WolfMan?

Complaints department

My computer is sticking n slow, I guess $300 doesn't buy what it used to.

My computer says Quick Was $400 more Buddy.

Paypal, Please stop asking me if I'm a robot, it was only funny the 1st 12 times.