Wednesday, October 5, 2016

Pez Outlaw, Perspective #pezoutlaw

 


Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.

You are where you are.

As the Pez Outaw Movie is released interviews crop up.
You are asked to tell Bits about the story, problem is this has been a 20 to 25 year journey n at this point I'm reflecting on the road traveled to get here.

I'm asked to tell stories.

My best story McHookers is untellable. It falls flat every time. You would think a story about Hookers at McDonalds would be funny. 

For me at my best, Life is a cartoon.

Life is a journey, when you are lucky it shocks you. Mine has exceded anything I could imagine many times  I am very fortunate but it has a price, everything does. You trade decades for each big win. In each win so far though I get almost a decade to live my wildest dream.

I can't emphasize enough how people like me n where I come from don't get movies made about them, we watch movies n dream.

The road from shooting heroine to this movie is very long. 

My story is every middle class n poor persons dream. My win shows them that there not crazy n to quit listening to people that tell them its not possible. Like, Oh Yeah well he did it n he's nuts, so why not me/them.  I'm one of them n they see n know that .

I show all my scars so they know that i'm not a pretender. You want to reach poor n middle class folks my story is there story. 

My 4 brothers are Flabbergasted I think that A movie was made about me. I was the screw up, always in trouble n in need of rescue. So how in Gods name did he end up here? 

The line in my writing is the Key. At that point I realized that I had One last thing to sell, MY STORY. My whole life led me here n prepared me for this.

There is a point to this statement.
The road from shooting heroine to this movie is very long.
I don't care how far you are down, There is a road back.
Even more with a great deal of hard work n dedication, you can even accomplish the impossible.
There is always Hope.

I found Bottom so many times, yet somehow Hope stayed alive within me.
Honestly I have no idea how you can fail so many times in life, then Fight your way back after each one.
Truly there is only one answer Mom, Darlin Girl, Kathy.

 I'm at heart a storyteller. Its up to others which ones are any good

You ever notice how you struggle to get somewhere n when you get there all sorts of folks wanna sell you maps.


Wanna share something personal.

I've been dissapointed with/by people I do business with so many times that it's more the rule than the exception. Then you meet the exceptions to that rule. Bryan Storkel n Amy Bandlien Storkel have never let me down. You get to that point where it ussually happens n nope just good news.

I really don't know how to explain this, it's such an exception. Good decent Honest people with Kind hearts. I truly love them both n it's been a pleasure working with them. My only regret is that we can't do the whole thing all over again.

I would be remiss if I did'nt mention that other exception to this rule, Larry Mason. I've never met a nicer person with such a giving heart.

After such a long struggle, that I feared I might not see the end of.

I have been Blessed with so many good friends.

Thank you Tina Christison Gunsauls for leading me out of the Darkness. A writer once asked me a why/who question for the millionth time. I told him when in doubt it was Tina.


The 2 Pez Outlaws Larry Mason n I are working on right now for a September release will reflect the Duality of Life Itself. / Ying n Yang.
How we strive for a humble life n how people that see you each day, see one person.
Then circumstances call for your ID or alter ego to emerge.
A reflection of the moment, 2 polar opposite Pez Outlaws.

To be clear. Pez Outlaw is as much a part of me as my other life. But he is not always there. He has never not shown up when I need him n I thank God For That.

Being a Diagnosed Schizophrenic can be useful.

You can obsess about something, which gets the job done.
And you can ignore it at the same time, which saves your sanity.

nobody is getting out of this alive.
we all stick our hands in the bowl to see what our ticket is gonna be.
mine is to simplify, crazy. moms is parkinsons. a friends is cancer. another persons is dimentia.
look i'm not trying to depress you, i want to show you something.
how mom n i deal with everything. we get up each day thank god for another day. take inventory n say okay thats where we are today.
my strategy is to have goals n projects that will take 5, 10 n 15 years to finnish.
we press the boundaries, use it or lose it.
so when i joke about this or that its not meant to minimize that thing. its to try n move beyond the obsticle.
laugh, joke, n hard work.
this post was prompted by my joke about, once around the bowl goldfish memory, then hearing that someone i know has dimentia.
this day, this moment, live it. the rest is tomorrows problem.

The Joke was a Gold fish reference to memory.
I was tellin Darlin Girl, " Once around The Bowl n it's all Gone".
About Myself.

Life Is A Cartoon.

A moment is all we get.
It's never enough.

The Bathroom Scales are on a Time Out in the hallway.

My Hair has been a bit depressed.
We got a lot of Jumpers.
#Beardstrong

Work Keeps gettin in the way of my Lazy.
Sometimes you have to earn your Lazy.


My brain hates repetition.
It starts to mess with me to get even.

There are rules to Bubble wrap.
I allow myself 1 bubble per sheet.
To pop more would be over indulgent.

Saw the optomotrist yesterday.
Told her my joke about having a bad 20yrs.
as to why she hadn't seen me in 2 decades.
She politely laughed.

I am not responsible for yesterday n day befores posts.
SUPER MOON!
My depresions swing with the full moon n that was a Doozie. Wolfman jokes are OK! If there is a Depessed WolfMan?

Complaints department

My computer is sticking n slow, I guess $300 doesn't buy what it used to.
My computer says Quick Was $400 more Buddy.

Paypal, Please stop asking me if I'm a robot, it was only funny the 1st 12 times.


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Wednesday, September 21, 2016

A Scooby-Doo Mystery #pezoutlaw


Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.


It's a Scooby Doo Mystery?
Head Shoulders Knees N Toes
Head Shoulders Knees N Toes

Day Turns To Night, Reality Slips Away.
Yesterday was a bit unnerving for me.
My mother's been dead for about 40yrs, yet I expected her to come round the corner at any moment n tell me that it's time to come home.

This detachment from your world started when my watch was telling me it was Friday when I thought it was Thursday. (daylight savings am for pm slip up)
What bothered me the most is that I had no recollection of Thursday, nothing at all.
This error was backed up by the hay count, which also indicated it was Friday.
Add to that, the horses were still in n it was past noon.

My grip on reality is tentative at the best of times, so a lot of questions started running though my mind.
Was I dreaming? My dreams can be pretty vivid n seem quite real at times.
I used my dream escape hatch by closing my eyes real tight n opening them real fast.
Always works, nope I seem to be awake.

My father died from Alzheimer's  so I even thought maybe it was really night n this reality was the confused state that Alzheimer's victims see.

I also believe in parallel multi Universes.
You see I kinda wonder n believe that it's possible that when you die in this Universe that you immediately join with yourself in another parallel Universe to continue.
How else do you explain my survival after so many poor choices in life.

All these things went through my mind one after the other.
Here's the embarrassing thing.
I know right about here you think I'm joking or making an attempt at being clever.
Sorry I'm not that clever or funny, the sad truth is that this was my reality for about an hour.

Slowly reality crept back in, but I swear I expected at any moment my Mom would come round the next corner n say time to come home steven.

Kathy's been gone a few days n my mind gets to wandering when left untended.
Kathy is my tether to this world. 

Kathy asked me, Why the tomb stones?
She thought the image kinda grim.
No reason, I just like the pic.

One night while walking on the dark n lonely road that leads to Stonecrete Asylum, something that can't be explained happened.
I saw a bright light coming towards me from the woods behind the Asylum cemetery.
I'd heard the stories of Old Sparky.
Whispers late in the night by children to scare each other.

Old Sparky approached dragging a lightning bolt along the ground.
Using the lightning bolt like a sigh to destroy everything in his path. 
The perverse joy in his heart while working was spellbinding.
To my horror by morning I knew The Legend of Old Sparky was true.

Old Sparky was first sighted in the worst lightning storm of the 1800s.
Lightning so severe that it ripped a hole in our reality to pull Old Sparky through.
Sentenced to roam the night whenever lightning strikes searching for a way home.
Time a bitter reminder n Humanity an annoyance to be swatted.
Old Sparky just wandered around the wilderness for the first century lonely n confused.
In the 1950s he started getting angry at the encroachment of humanity on the purgatory he had been condemned to.
1951 was the first recorded event of Old Sparky.
All his previous activities were written off to bad storms n stories for children.
June of 1951 the headline read "Stonecrete Asylum, 21 Slain" in the worst lightning storm seen in 2 centuries.
Stories conflicted because the deaths took place at The Old Stonecrete Asylum.
The only surviving witnesses had been in Stonecrete Asylum so long that there account of what happened was considered unreliable.
Problem was what happened had no other explanation.

Inmates saw Old Sparky walk into the Stonecrete cemetery then seem to vanish as the last bolt of lightning struck.

Who knows maybe it's an elevator pitch?


 Pez Outlaw Diary

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Monday, September 12, 2016

Things Life Has Taught Me. Pez Outlaw #pezoutlaw

 


Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.


If you see things on the Big Ole World of the interweb & wonder why I seem to have no reaction.
I tend to stay on my own pages. When I see or am made aware of certain things, My Go To is to ignore them.
Mentally I find this to be the kindest thing that I can do for myself.
I have very precise goals, I keep my focus on them & ignore everything else. They are just distractions that hinder my objectives.
There is always a lot of Chaos that swirls around everything, that must be ignored.
Life will tell you being obsessive compulsive with tunnel vision is your burden to be bared & medicated.
Well of course that's one way if you find it to much to bare.
Ever since I was a child, You tell me I must or try to force me, My back gets up with rebellion.
I think & hope that I have learned how to use what others call dissabilities.
Well we will see?

Some think anger, profanity & hostility are the way to fight.

My 20 years in poverty taught me that the opposite is true.

Patience, calm & precision are the best way.

Hostility, Anger & profanity turn people off & send them running.

They tune you out.

This is a very long game.

Envision your goals, make them the new Hobby in your brain.
When you can see them, your actions will be guided by them.

Very important. Remove negative people & thoughts from your life. They are like Vampires & will suck the life from your dreams. It's far to easy to say I can't. The real strength is needed to say I can.

That's why I have surrounded myself with The Pezzies. I have never met a KInder, more supportive & generous group of People.

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Friday, September 2, 2016

Pez Outlaw, Relentless n Shameless #pezoutlaw

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.

I am never offended when someone unfriends me because they just can't take it anymore.

Every time somebody I know asks to be friended on facebook.
I ask them or at least think, 
Are you sure you really want this?

 I often think of my methods as Brute Force.
In the vane of the old Soviet Method of re-engineering technology.
Give me something stupid, I use it.
Lack of understanding how to use something, no problem.
Just plow forward.

No fear of being trashed by someone who might take exception To Pez Outlaw Diary or a post on Notes From The Asylum.
There anger would just be free publicity.

On twitter alone I've got over 100,000 posts.
My facebook friends definitely grow weary of being the conduit to my imaginary perception of the Internet as an entity.

Anyway I'm sorry to my friends on facebook.
I'm not going to stop, but I am sorry. 

 This post is a prime example.
There was a point to the Torture of today's posts on google+, facebook and twitter.

 I know that I can get over 2,000 to 3,000 views of Notes Fron The Asylum in 4 hrs if I'm willing to put the work in. Today once again I proved the point. 1,100 views.

 It's not about being right. Proving a point or using you.  

To the contrary I really appreciate you and the dependable interest level in Notes From The Asylum.

 Anyway days like today are to show myself the strength of Notes From The Asylum, but only if I'm willing to personally put the work in.

 Today though was/is a soft push,  on hard push days I max out the number of posts you are allowed on twitter within a given time period n am given a time-out by twitter.
Nowhere near close to that today.
After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.





Pez Corporate Fraud, Pez Color War, Restitution.
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Wednesday, August 3, 2016

Catfishing #pezoutlaw

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.

I threw the big battery away but saved the broken plane as a Catfishing reminder.


MMMM, CATFISH, YUMMY. Not that kind of Catfish, idjet.

This morning I was contacted by someone looking at a big collection of collectibles, but the owner was vague on what they wanted.
No doubt this seller is on the up n up but the number of time I have run across this with Pez n Cereal Boxes where they weren't changed the way I do business.

 In the beginning I would just send money to people n trusted pretty much everybody.
Now, anybody that I do not know of or that I did not source must send the product, then I send a check.

 Josh, Steph n my turning point was a Pez deal.
Someone contacted me with some really cool stuff at a fair price.
I sent the check. A day or 2 later a box arrived containing a very big battery and a broke metal plane.
Thank God we were able to contact the bank n claw the money back. If I remember it was about $1,200.00.
This type of thing happened n does more than you would think.

 Now when contacted about Cereal Boxes these days, I tell them.
Send the boxes n once they arrive I will send the check.
I always explain. You know who I am or you would not have contacted me.
I have no idea who you are.

 I also have a hard n fast rule. 
If the seller indicates I'm bidding against someone for the items, I walk away.
Do not contact me about an item if you already have an interested buyer, because I will just say thank you for thinking of me n congratulate the other party on there win.

Never be pushed into a purchase.
If any kind of a hurry up or you will lose it strategy is employed by a seller.
Politely thank the for thinking of you, then run as fast as you can, holding tightly onto your wallet as you run.

One last thing.
When I'm thinking about buying something, I do not try to go cheap n hope I get it.
I offer what I'm willing to pay.
I know what something is worth to me for various reasons n factors, that's what I offer.
Decline that offer n what you have stays yours or somebody elses.

If I lose something after I offer what it's worth to me, I have no remorse.
Obviously that item is of no use to me at the higher price.

Believe it or not, each of these rules came into being after one scam or another.
I've even had people bitch me out after I refuse to send money up front to someone I've never heard of.
On the other hand, I had a guy who claimed to have worked at the printers for Ralston contact me with a pretty large amount of unused flats.
If ever there was a scam in the making that one bore all the earmarks.
Really cool stuff n lots of it.
We settled on $2.00 per box x 1,000+ boxes.
Reluctantly he said he'd ship.
To my amazement, it was real. I next day expressed his cashiers check.

The moral is sometimes fairytales do come true, but you must follow good business practices with strangers to be safe.
If you lose the buy, you have lost nothing because you can not lose what was never yours to begin with. 

There are a lot of people in the world today that think you are stupid, Don't prove them right.

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.
new profile pic captures my essence



Pez Outlaw Diary


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Monday, August 1, 2016

Pez Outlaw, Paradox Redux #pezoutlaw

Please Watch My Emmy Winning Movie, The Pez Outlaw on Amazon Prime & Peacock. 100% on Rotten Tomatoes. Best actor at SXSW.

It's My Story.

I write these things now, because when I'm in the middle of what will become the Pez Outlaw Hurricane I'm not sure how sane I will be.
I hope that I will handle everything the way I've been talking about, but is that enough.

I never am quite sure what people are up to when this n that go on in my life.
I can only control what I'm doing.
This comes up because every so often someone from Europe seems to be digging for info on my past life.
I jumped off that bridge almost 2 decades ago, so I just smile n answer politely.
Shoulda or shouldna is history n reduced to a good story.
I would be disappointed though if the motivations were other than honorable.

I don't regret my past but I wouldn't like it if my past was used to hurt someone else.
The reason I don't regret my past or yesterday is that I view every new day as a rebirth.
When I get up each morning yesterday is erased, I use each days rebirth as a new chance to be a better person.
I do not carry yesterday into today, yesterday is almost someone elses life.
That's where my alter ego "Pez Outlaw" comes in, that life was his life n I'm simply his biographer. Life will judge him as it decides.

It would be fare to say that I live in the moment n chronicle my past as a purge.
Should something that happened be hidden? Some would say yes.
Sunlight is the best disinfectant. Just wanted to say that even if it might actually be Hooey.
Truth is I like telling stories n I don't fear my past.
A hidden past is the only way it can cause you shame.
If you openly own your past nobody can use it against you.
I've told more dirt about myself than a gossip columnist.
I prefer that you hear it from me.

Paradox


Recently a visitor to the farm said thank you for your service after I mentioned that I'd been in the military.
I had to tell him that I'm not sure I'm allowed to accept that.
For that matter I've never been sure if I'm allowed to say that I'm even a veteran.

I also wonder about the whole situation now.
I joined the Marine Corps at age 17 and immediately (that very night) shipped out to boot camp.
The Marine Corps method in Boot Camp is to reduce the recruit to a blank slate then reshape you as a Marine.

What happens when this process goes wrong?
A little over a half year later the Navy Doctor diagnosed me as Schizophrenic and I was asked to leave.
No treatment was ever offered and no money to even get home, I had to hitch-hike from the east coast back to Michigan with nothing but the clothes on my back.
I was simply escorted to the front gate with nothing.
A few months later I received a discharge from the service as Medically Undesirable.
I eventually received a General Discharge.

Almost half a century later after sorting myself out without any help (except Kathy), I've begun to question a few things.
Nine months into military service my diagnosed condition manifested, yet no help or consideration was ever offered.
No help of any kind, zero.

Just seems like I got the rough end of the boot for something I never asked for and might very well have been triggered during my military service.
I gotta be honest, I'm not sure that I'm even allowed to say that I'm a veteran.

Your question is most likely.
After 50yrs why is this really on your mind?

Have you ever seen those commercials on the cable channels for VA Home Loans?
At the age of 67 and on social security, I thought what the heck and called the number.
After losing that half million dollars buying pez I was left with $250,000.00 in home and line of credit debt.
Kathy has paid it down to Approx $150,000.00 of combined debt over the last 20yrs.
Well that VA Loan thing to combine the Home Mortgage would be really sweet right about now.

The man was very polite and thanked me for my service?
Followed by the fastest Home Mortgage application known to man.
Wasn't asked to fill out a thing, just a 3 minute conversation, followed by sorry you don't qualify.
And like magic there I stood 50yrs ago at the outside of the Military Gate with nothing once again.

That is precisely why I said, "Am I Allowed To Ask"?

C1. Crazy Is Easy If You Are Motivated, #pezoutlaw...

So the guy says, we'd like to help you promote your book on amazon.
Well there are only 2 really REALLY BIG problems with that.
One I'm poor n two I can't figure out how to format n submit it to Amazon.
I tried n I really sucked.
Made the cover, submitted what I thought was the book????????????
Epic Fail.
A long conversation later n he ran away.
They always do.
Pez Outlaw Diary

I've never sent an email n I will not talk on phones. 
To be honest, I think I'd spontaneously combust the second I did.
facebook n twitter, that's it.

Scratch Offs are Karmic Thermometers.

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.





Pez Corporate Fraud, Pez Color War, Restitution.
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