Pez Outlaw, LIFE IS HARD! #pezoutlaw

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Cofession.

I have a deep need to prove to the future that I was here.

At the same time I realize that it means nothing.

Person Least Likely to succeed or acomplish anything.

My past is well known by all of you, so we will leave that be.

Safe to say my family n friends felt I would accomplish nothing.

I wonder, Has my life been about proving everybody wrong?

My failures have been Epic, My Highs have been pretty high.

I guess I've lived the definition of my whatever you want to call it, Bypolar or just plain crazy. I own that word crazy, I do not shrink from it.

For someone who watched n dreamed about movies to have one made about me is unthinkable, but a real joy.

My hope is to also leave behind a book.

The person least likely to succeed, n yet he wrote a book.

Pull the other one.

The Job.

There is a beauty to doing a job.

Hay, Lifting an auto waterer 12 inches out of the mudd hole it fell in, Roofing a hay barn, building Doghouse bale barns n the 10 yrs of projects that await me.

Some are very hard, some stretch your comfort zone, That roof/afraid of heights, The movie/going places n being around lots of people.

I learned working in the shop. Take a job in pieces, not as a whole.

Do what's in front of you.

Working in the mud the other day, if we hadn't been making progress it woulda sucked. But every time we gained a few inches, we cheered with joy.

I get great satisfaction from working. When I accomplish something I feel the day had worth.

The Pez Outlaw movie for me was a Job, no different than building anything I do here on the farm. When completed all I hoped was that it was done well. Then you move on to the next Job.

/Build or project.

Boundaries.

There are always limits n parameters we are forced to stay within.

They somewhat dictate the path we must take.

This isn't necessarily a bad thing unless you fight it.

Sometimes the confines of the problem requires you to get very creative. There is a joy in that.

This has been true my whole life.

The Jester

To me the jester was a very crafty devil in history. He had to tell the truth in a way that he still got to keep his head on his shoulders.

Pez Outlaw then 1990s n now has had to carefully navigate the pitfalls or that line that exist between sucess n failure without being noticed too much. I failed in the 1990s but I learned from it.

Anyway, just my opinion. Plus he makes me laugh.

As Tony Beets would say. "Make It Happening, ASP".

At a Glance you would underestimate him.

There are many characters within each of us.

The Best way to play the game is to be underestimated.

It gives you the freedom to move n accomplish your goals.

If you know who you are n patiently pursue your goals the rest is just noise.

#soon

sorry if i used the hashtag i want to, it would really let the cat outa the bag. so many secrets.

 

LIFE IS HARD!

Gotta write something about Birdie Cat.

This morning Mom said She is so Manipulative.

4am Birdie banging on the Window in the kitchen.

She wanted in, saying It's cold out here.

Birdie Cat really would prefer to eat her meals on a saddle cuboard in the arena. Problem is it draws Racoons. Since Rudy Dog passed that's a real problem.

Anyway Birdie Cat n I argue about where she should eat every meal, every day. N she wins more than I wanna admit.

Guess I better just get New Rudi. Red Bull Mastiffs are VERY Territorial. Old Rudi had all the critters backed off to the edge of where I mow. That went to poo after Old Rudi Passed.

You think Birdie Cat will listen to that, No!

Mom, Darlin Girl, Kathy said, is this our fault?

Yeah I think it is. Our goal has always been to raise perfect critters.

There is an innosence child like nature to each one, we try to let that pure quality survive there whole lives.

The bad news I think we are getting good at it. Downside, they have a lot of opinions n you start feeling like there employees.

The Upside. 

You Know BlackHawk/Hawk the horse arrived here a year or so ago.

He's not a youngun. But after a good bit he has gone back to being a very young n childlike in nature. That is very rewarding. Hawk has such a beautiful innocence about him. He is just plain HAPPY.

A joy to know n watch.

Ilona Stevens

I love this! My employers wake me every morning to make sure breakfast is done correctly.

Steve Glew

Ilona Stevens we need to start a union. Fare treatment n less lip from our employers.

Commie Pinko #pezoutlaw

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There are things that sound funny in your head but the censors (in your head) cut from public viewing.

This one slipped out.
This post is written as a JOKE.
Send all complaints to Joe McCarthy.


It seems an explanation is in order. 
Kathy says nobody understands my intent.
This post is meant in humor, it's meant as a display of lunacy. 

Forgive me, I think it's ridiculously funny.
And I'm still getting stares, OK Dark humor then.
This was my childhood.

We actually did the "Duck n Cover Drills".
People actually had fallout shelters when I was a child.
This is not a political statement.

I don't do politics, There Big Boys n Girls, they can handle there own stuff.
If they can't, then they have no business being there.
I'm not going to lose family or friends fighting for them.

Stop The Presses though for a good Commie Pinko Red Scare.
My childhood demands I stop my life, my dreams n my goals n get on board.
Plus it's FUN.

I have always loved the slur, Commie Pinko. Nothing is more fun than calling a friend a Commie Pinko for some very small disagreement or indiscretion.
It just cracks me up. 

Had it not been for Americas favorite Knucklehead Wildman Joe McCarthy we would not have this affectionate moniker for a dear friend who has strayed.

That's it. Short n sweet.
Purity in brevity. 

Oh yeah, sorry almost forgot.
I want to apologize to any Commie Pinko's my remarks might have offended.
Commie Pinko's are kinda touchy bout that name. OOPs did it again. Sorry, sorry.

Where's Waldo?

My childhood, Readers Digest version.

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Pez Outlaw, 5 stages of grief #pezoutlaw

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The Kübler-Ross model, or the five stages of grief, postulates a series of emotions experienced by survivors of an intimate's death, wherein the five stages are denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.

With everything happening right now this has many applications n meanings.
That said, let's leave the broader analysis to better minds n better writers. 
I'm only an expert on my own experiences.

I've had an 18 year journey with the 5 stages of grief.
My entire life I felt an emptiness n longing for something.
In the 1990s in my 40s I finally felt I'd found the thing I'd been searching for.

In later years our lives are comprised of our memories.
With each of us one section of our life stands out to us as that time period that defines us.
For some it's High School, others it's war n the brotherhood they experienced, Birth, children n family.
My life defining period where I lived as I had dreamed to my whole life were my years as Pez Outlaw.

It's not important that my dreams manifested in the form of Pez dispensers.
What's important is that my yearning to achieve purpose n success independently was finally in my grasp.

I'd found my muse in Pez, something I could shape to find meaning and achieve my life's yearnings.
All went well for quite a while, I thought I finally had the world by the tail.

At the end of a decade I realized sometimes you think you've got the gator when in reality, the gator has you.
I set myself up for disaster when I brokered a 1/2 million dollar deal with Pez Corporation, unable to realize the treachery that lay just around the corner.

After years of beating Pez Corporation at every turn, I had begun to believe I was invincible.
I started believing my own myth.

What followed is well documented in Pez Outlaw Diary so I won't bore you here.
The short of it is I lost every penny.

That was 1998 n the year I started the 5 stages of grief that actually lasted for the next 18 years.

Denial
For the next 3 years 1998 thru 2001 I refused to accept what had happened n fought with everything I had to beat Pez Corporation.
In true David vs Goliath fashion I had a few wins.
I destroyed the marketability of the product that had been produced to destroy me.
I also believe that what I call The Pez Color War (see  C12. The Day I Died) led to the retirement of the President of Pez USA Scott McWhinnie.  

Reality though was my wins came at a very deep cost.
I lost almost everything I'd spent over 20 years building.
So, Denial I think covers it pretty good.
 
Anger
In 2001 I reached my anger phase which manifested itself as my book Pez Outlaw Diary , which I spent most of the next decade writing n rewriting.
My anger n hatred was palpable, I was like a mean old dog with a bone.
I honestly don't blame all the folks that ran away, just tired of hearing it.     

Bargaining
Bargaining took 2 forms, both of which occurred more or less at the same time starting in 2011. 
I created ebay listings for Pez Outlaw Diary  ,one to publish it as a book n the other for the movie rights.
At the same time I also created a chapter ( C13. Hollywood or Bust  )that can only be described as bargaining on many levels.

Depression
After the initial high of my genius plan (Sarcasm Sheldon) in bargaining, which lasted a year or so came depression.
My depression lasted about 3 years, say 2012 to 2015.
Depression is probably why I behaved like such a jerk to the Hollywood producer who initially contacted me in 2014.

Acceptance
In 2015 when Jeff Maysh contacted me about writing his story, I was finally at the acceptance stage in my grief.
I realized Pez Outlaw Diary had gone as far as I could take it, so this time I said yes. 
Jeff flew out from California n spent a weekend doing his interview.
Jeff's story The Pez Outlaw has since won 2 awards.

As jeff was in his car leaving I asked him to roll down his window.
Hey Jeff you should contact X movie producer who contacted me a year ago, I owe him for my jerk behavior.

Jeff did contact X movie producer n I am currently under contract for movie n book rights.
No comment beyond that.

I can't control the world or fix it.

All I can do is deal the best I can with what's in front of me. 

I have narrowed my world to the 20 acres that I live on n rarely leave it.

When an animal or one of my dogs does something I find different than my way of thinking, I always say that that's between them n god.

I used to listen to the news till noon almost every day.

I find myself switching over to the Highway or Willies Roadhouse earlier n earlier every day now. 

Even 4 n 8 years ago I got all wound up about politics, no more. 

So what do you do n what can you do?

Honestly all you can control is who you are by trying to be a good person.

Do your job.

If what you have to say will hurt someone, don't say it. 

If every person in the world would just strive to be decent n honest, I figure that would do it.

It seems like every month now something terrible happens.

People get all wound up about stuff that has no real relationship with why we are here.

We are here to do the best we can n then be measured by it.

I no longer join anything n I do not seek the outside world for purpose.

I have more in common with the Amish than regular folks.

You want to live in servitude to false idols n causes, well that's between you n God.

I no longer judge or care, not my job.

I do what needs doin n fix what I can.

I recognize what I can not fix.

My tools are duct tape, zip ties, a drill n a tractor.

I know n accept my limitations. 

Animals bring me joy, I understand them.

People bring me sadness. 

I wish that that were not so but regrettably it is. 

I accept that I can not fix it.

I walk with animals now.

They make sense. 

Humans are to busy for me anymore.

The things I do now concerning the outside world have only one purpose.

To secure my world.

So yes I bang on about Pez Outlaw, but that's only so I can pay the debt that threatens my world.

Once that debt's paid I just don't care anymore.

So there are my 5 stages of grief.
see you at the movies.

Christmas Lights in Mid July.
Complete laziness or thinking ahead?
Well over halfway there, starting to look like a go getter.

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

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Pez Outlaw Diary

Pez Outlaw, Amish Salvation #pezoutlaw

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It's My Story.

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I'm not a doom n gloom kinda guy but I do find thoughts interesting, like the following n of course ancient Aliens.


Amish

One of my friends is an Amish farrier named Henry.
Ole Henry n I see eye to eye on a whole lot of things.
I guess you could say we are friends.

For being Amish Henry is a very traveled man. He does not drive cars but people drive him all over the place. Henry was telling me that recently on a long drive there was a person with a tablet of one type or another.
Henry said, hey there's an article out there somewhere on steve glew, can you find it so I can read it.

Well there you go Pez Outlaw has now reached the Amish community.
A better headline would be "Amish Read Playboy".

No offense intended because I'd be willing to bet you Ole Henry had no idea what publication he was reading that Pez Outlaw story came from. The guy next to him just pulled up the Pez Outlaw Story on his tablet thingy.


I've joked with Henry that one day soon he might become a very popular guy.
My tin foil hat fear is an EM pulse.
I just think people don't know how to do for themselves anymore. My son Josh n I would be ok, which means our entire family would be ok.

My dad was a getter done kinda guy n even though he thought I was not paying attention. I was.
Add to that the fact that on n off since 1970 I've been my own guy. The, I got a guy thing.
It just seems to me the more technology we get dependent on, the less we know about how to actually take care of ourselves.
Josh n I can take it from the ground to the table. if necessary make whatever we need.

That EM thing would be a really life altering event for this country.
I just think old Henry n his folks are gonna be real popular.

The Legend of Pez Outlaw has even reached The Amish Community.


To Jeff Maysh, Henry liked the story, said it was pretty good. 

OK, OK, hyping Pez Outlaw n Joking aside.
I really respect the Amish community and Henry specifically.
Henry goes out into our world to earn, then takes it back to his world.
My intent with Pez Outlaw is to emulate that work ethic. 
I hope to go out into a foreign to me world and earn, then take those earnings back to my world to secure our future.



be rice or be a noodle, don't try to be both


One of my favorite foods after Hungry Howie's cheesy bread sticks is the line of Velveeta meals.
My favorites are Bacon n Cheesy Mac. Warning I give them my own names, not there box names.

My least favorite Velveeta meal is the one that has very small noodles the size of rice.
When I'm done eating I always find myself annoyed at the fake rice. I really like Rice.

Which leads to the same statement over n over. Be rice or be a noodle, don't try to be both.
Last night Kathy had had enough, she threw out the fake rice from the box n replaced it with real rice.
It was yummy.
Next, replace the chicken with hamburger.




After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

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