I'm Tired Of Workin So Hard To Be Poor. Pez Outlaw #pezoutlaw

   

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 I'm Tired Of Workin So Hard To Be Poor. Pez Outlaw

Do you know what I finally realized at age 74yrs old?

I don't know a cotton picken thing.

That n I am definitely not in charge of this rodeo.

You can scream for 25yrs & all you will get is a sore throat.

Though I do love a good napp, Please wake me if anything happens.

 

For me who I am has and is evolving.

If you are unwilling to change, then your life will remain stagnant.

On the other hand if change is your goal, life can get very interesting.

I need to remind you though, passive desire won't do, you must actively work for the changes that you desire.

Wishing will only get someone else a pond full of coins.

I have been doing this for so long.

30yrs since It all started in 1994.

25yrs since the Misfits.

Almost 10yrs since the Playboy story.

3-4 yrs since we 1st talked about the Pez Outlaw movie on Prime & Netflix.

Contract Negotiations are at a Very Awkward stage with Hollywood.

So I Asked.

I Guess right now would be a bad time to ask for an 18% inflation raise?

A Grand Panjandrum.

One persons wildest dreams met can be another's cruel disappointment.

My life is made up of the best choice of what is possible.

Seems like 2 minutes ago it was 1999 & I started this 20 year journey with Pez Outlaw.

The title of this post kept churning through my head n I just couldn't shake it.
If I had a choice in the matter, I'd prefer to be remembered as a writer.
A nobody Leaving his mark in the sand.

Just over the Horizon

Praying for a cure

Walls closing in

Livin on Dreams

Paying with promises

Times running out 

Life defined by a moment

Each day weighted down by the past

Tomorrow a message of hope.

You might not know this, If you're the last old guy standing that can still do things, you it would appear have value.

I don't know what legacy I will leave.

If my life has been instructive at all I hope you will take this from it.

No matter what happens you can overcome it.

You don't have to finish as who you have been defined as, even if that's been most of your life.

Look outside the usual for answers.

Always save a penny to pursue your dreams.

In my life I've been defined as many things; a drug addict, an alcoholic, a dropout, diagnosed crazy, a machinist, Pez Outlaw and a horse farmer.

I've also written a book that might become a movie.

In my life I have always pursued change in myself, to be a better person and to find whatever happiness life will allow me.

The first 40 years of my life I could have been a Machinist who retired from the shop n that would have been that.

Then my Grandmother died n left me some money, I took that money n invested it in a dream or an idea to exploit a loophole in cereal premium redemption.

I built on that into pez which eventually yielded 4.5 million dollars and Pez Outlaw was born.

After all of that failed rather spectacularly I could have stopped n let that define me but I did not, I took 10 years n wrote Pez Outlaw Diary.

Now there is interest in the Pez Outlaw story, where it will go I have no idea for sure but again I don't relax n let it ride.

No, every day I come in here for a minimum of 3 hours n write in an effort to improve my odds.

Never take a passive role in the outcome of your life, you are either the passenger or the driver.

Decide which.

Lately I've had the inescapable feeling that I've stuck my head through the looking glass n find it difficult to return.

The illusion clouds reality.

In short I'm at a crossroads putting faith in my subconscious for true north. 

I put my hope in the collective illusion, loosing myself in the methods n beliefs of popular culture.

Unfortunately the veil is lifting exposing the shallowness.

Each day it becomes harder to deny. 

There is what I wanted to be true n there's what's actually true.

No more denial, I accept reality. 

I hear my Mother's voice saying, 
"Was this a good use of your time?"

I thought this would be easier.
If I'd known it would take at least 20yrs?
Well you know the rest.

I'm not sure that I even know how to stop.
Each day ruled by decisions made decades ago.
I don't want money, I just don't want to worry about it anymore.

Last night I got to talking with 2 of the ladies that come to the Horse farm. Friends.
We got on the subject of Pez Outlaw when I was describing the circle drive I was thinking about, because that one thing is part of a much bigger conversation.

It all comes down to if the first Domino falls. Meaning the Pez Outlaw Movie & or book.
I explained that the movie & Book only pay about 1/2 of my debt still on the books from PEZ.
That if that happened you can't get all puffed up like you are a big deal, cause you are not. Momentary success would only last or have impact for about 3 years, meaning it's a small window of opportunity. During that time I'd have mere moments to restructure my life n remove the things that are a cancer on my day to day life.

To me it's a lot like the moment when I realized the opportunity offered by the old stock I found in the European warehouses. I had to move as fast as I could to scoop up all of that Pez that I could. Over 70 trips to Europe in 10 years.

In the end that opportunity became The Pez Outlaw story. 

It's like the people who win the Lotto then end up broke. Lost there minds, didn't know how to handle it n lost everything.
Been there, Done that. OK can you do better this time?

People want a happy ending, someone who fails then through perseverance alone fights there way back n finally gets it right.

Here's the part that will surprise you.
If everything goes as planned, I fully intend to spend every penny very rapidly.
I plan to pay my debts, pay the taxes, then upgrade as many things as I can.
Remove the things that oppress us debt & recurring monthly bills, which brings me to the exciting part.
I want top convert our lives to living off the grid.
Step 1.
Remove our energy bill by putting up a bank or 2 of solar panels (25-50)
Solar Batteries for dark days n overnight.

I'm sick n tired of so many monthly threats in the form of bill to our happiness n existence.

Then we can go back to living a very simple n quiet life.

I will do whatever it takes to get us there.

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

The reasons Pez Outlaw was targeted by Pez Corporation

Big Fish #pezoutlaw

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Big Fish

The survivors

We stand before our past

The Dog that caught the car

In that second we realize

Case File 19

25 years ago I was in Paris.
No idea what the future held.

Shadows fall.
How do I fit my dreams into this reality?

Don't tell people what you know is true.
Wear the face people expect to see. 

I keep going back to 51% Sane.
Are you ready for what's coming?

Bones in the crawl space? 
If not for crazy, reality would kill me. 

The shame of Time lost.
My Angel is gone.

Neglected past, unrecognized present.
Fantasy the last refuge.

The tears of a child for his future.
Is it yet to come?

I can't control how others see me.
Truth revealed itself.

Shame fell away.
Darkness claimed it's own.

"Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night" by Dylan Thomas

Life is just the agreed upon version of crazy. 
My search is to connect what we usually can't see.
The gift, that I'm very grateful for.

The title always comes first.
The words fall down underneath it.
The Universe in all its forms will speak to you if you are listening.

I have no use for the past n little for the present.
My interest is the moments in between.
Moments of clarity, a brief conversation with the unseen.

Reality is tedious, but moments of clarity are delicious.
I live each day in the hope of those brief moments.
I don't get them every day or even once a week, but often enough that I wait for each one.

That's why I'm so grateful.
The title is the key that unlocks the door.
Within is that which feeds my soul. 

Abstract thought is like dancing between raindrops n not getting wet.
The raindrops of the past, the present n the future.
What I want can only be found between the drops of rain.



Most people in life are like a dog chasing the wrong car.
The Dogs and I just finished  barking at nothing in particular.
Tootsie said that it would be fun.

Be at peace with yourself.
Maintain a safe place in your mind as refuge.
Lift those around you when you can.

Keep dreaming, life without them is unthinkable.
Believe in yourself so others can.
Every day is a new chance to make your dreams reality.

Above all patience, it takes time.
Your contribution to tomorrows inevitability is what counts.
Eventually your efforts will be rewarded.

Overnight success require years of work.
Choose this path knowing the years ahead when only you believe your goal is possible.
I think that's the hardest part.

The years when you can see that nobody wants to hear it anymore.
This is the moment when your belief is truly tested.



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It's me, not you.
Those that can do.
Those that can't teach.
Those that have money do big things.
Those that don't write about big things.

Once thought to be the answer.
Now we should fear its presence.
The destroyer of Worlds.
I'm not allowed to talk about my dreams anymore.
It's complicated. 

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Kathy says funny thing that.
I just got the "Are You A Robot?" from facebook.
With all the data mining facebook n google are daily accused of, it would appear that my data input is not what they had in mind.
The difference is that I use facebook n google to promote Pez Outlaw.
What are they gonna do with that?
They want where you are, what you're eating n what you bought.
There I go being a big disappointment again.

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 I just feel if my life is gonna change, I gotta do it.
Various administrations come n they go, my destiny is up to me.
So Holidays etc, I continue to work. 

Other peoples good fortune is there's not mine.
I choose not to live through there success or failure.
To do so would diffuse my efforts. 

Congratulations n good luck but honestly it will not change my life.
Only my efforts can be mine or change my life.
That said we continue, I have daily goals that must be met. 

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Today my mood like my Boots has a lot of mud on it.
Have you ever noticed how your mood reflects the weather?

Yesterday one of the gals had a really good day with her horse.
She was walking around on cloud 9 n didn't want the day to end.

It's all perspective isn't it.
I've been slogging around in 4 inches of mud for 4 days now, so my perspective is different.

It's all where you stand.
Nice hard ground n enclosed arena or out in the pens like me n the horses.

My goal in life is to say what I think in the most abstract way as possible.

A well phrased position on a topic should be interpretable to whatever the readers view on the topic is.

If we're not having fun n laughing, well what's the point?

Entertaining gibberish is a tonic for what ails us all..

There is just to much sadness n depression in the world.

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

The reasons Pez Outlaw was targeted by Pez Corporation

All the voices in my head were there, There was Cake. #pezoutlaw

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It's My Story.

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The Son Becomes The Father, but not the other thing.

After the last office party we had here at the Asylum I was very reluctant to allow another.
When Notes From The Asylum hit almost 2 million views I had no choice but to allow it.
All the voices in my head were there, making for a very raucous event indeed.
There was Cake.

I sorta get it.
I mentioned this milestone to several people from the outside world n got nothing.
The problem is I was reluctant to spell out why it's so significant, so now I will.

Pez Outlaw Diary has been up for approx a decade n I've been actually working on it for 15yrs.
In that decade Pez Outlaw Diary has received roughly 376,000 views.
Notes From The Asylum will have been up 2yrs in the coming August.
Meaning in less than 2yrs NFTA has exceeded a decades work on Pez Outlaw Diary.

I was reluctant to spell this out because I worried this revelation might hurt Pez Outlaw Diary.
This morning I decided that since Notes From The Asylum was created to help illuminate the mind of Pez Outlaw, so why not.
When I signed the original contracts for Pez Outlaw I knew that a lot of waiting was next.
Meaning I needed something to stay busy n pass the time.

Initially I created NFTA to provide details about how the mind of Pez Outlaw works for the scriptwriter.
Nobody asked for it but I figured it couldn't hurt.
I believe I was right because I've been told, "keep doing what you're doing".

What I never counted on was that this side-venture into the workings of my mind would surpass what it was created from/for.
Notes From The Asylum has been very illuminating.
Because of NFTA I've finally moved on from 15yrs of anger n obsession with Pez Outlaw Diary.

When Notes From The Asylum started showing me that it was going to pass Pez Outlaw Diary in 1/5 the time, I was kinda shocked.
How was it that busy work was becoming more successful than where it sprang from.
The answer is easy.
Pez Outlaw Diary is confined to the parameter of the Pez Outlaw story.
Notes From the Asylum has no boundaries it can go anywhere n be about anything.

I hope this share passes muster.
There would be no Notes From The Asylum without Pez Outlaw Diary.
So NFTA's crazy success should not diminish the value of it's predecessor.


I'm sorta over the moon about the success of Notes From The Asylum.
Thank you for all the views n I especially thank Slovakia for almost half of those 368,000 views.

When you ask to be friended or follow me, make sure it's what you really want, because I'm relentless in pursuit of my goals.

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

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