Pez Outlaw, High Functioning Schizophrenic #pezoutlaw

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The 1st person to label me as Schizophrenic was the Navy Doctor in 1969, but once they broke it Did they offer any help. No!

2nd there are the voices, n here I thought everybody heard them. Solution, I put someone in charge of them all. Now it's his problem.

3rd TV, Oh Lovely TV. Drug commercial talked about if you see patterns n shapes in random patterns. Here I thought it was something cool n unique, special if you will.

Screw them all, I decided that it's a gift. I embrace my unique ability to think outside the box. I can't even find that box. Yes my failures are quite spectacular but the wins are worth it.

Crazy But Prolific

I've been tossing this one around in my head for a week now. Mostly the title n wondering how I get there from the title. He's Crazy But Damn Is He Prolific.

The easy answer is that crazy is the gift that just keeps giving.

A bottomless pit of...........

I get some of my best ideas in the bathroom. The shower is my dream space.

You'd think writing 3 to 4 of these a day would be impossible, but so far they seem to just pour out.

Do I care if these posts only amuse or tickle me? No.

I do this to occupy my mind to keep it engage n from turning to mush.

If people like my posts, BONUS. So far indications are that people do.

15,000 views of Notes From The Asylum in the last 30 days.

Mentally I checked into this, Notes From The Asylum, to keep me from tinkering anymore with Pez Outlaw Diary.

Figuratively I'm in the waiting room on a decade long project. Notes From The Asylum are my doodles while I wait. It could be a year n a half. So I'm trying to make myself comfortable with the schedule.

Here's what happened.

At a point I realized that it was greedy of me to keep all this lovely crazy for myself.

What kind of person would I be if I was not willing to share.

So I created Notes From The Asylum to invite you all to share in my bounty.

To do otherwise would be to act like a 1%er of crazy.

It's only fare that I share.

After all we live in the new sharing society.

Did anyone else see that?

The picture at the top of this page just moved.

Dial It Up

Crazy is my business.

The only thing I was told when events set in motion was. Dial It Up.

I'm not sure that they realized exactly what there request was about to unleash.

Shortly after that statement I created Notes From The Asylum.

To date the most viewed endeavor I have ever started at as today 70,000 views in 4 months.

In my little world very big numbers.

I was just reading something about someone who took on a rich n powerful entity.

My immediate thought was, Oh my that would be a very rough go indeed.

Then the irony washed over me, right I have been doing that for over 2 decades.

One big difference though, the actress who was up against a rich n powerful entity had one huge disadvantage, she is a sane person. So things bother her and the rules can get in her way.

In a lot of ways being crazy gives me an edge, because I don't care what anybody thinks of me.

My only focus or concern is on the goal.

So Pez Corp. I hope you brought lots n  lots of crayons.

Like Sheldon TV has always been a friend, a refuge at the end of the day.

Unfortunately, TV of late has not been able to compete with my imagination on quality.

I Am Pez Outlaw, Crazy is the Brand. #pezoutlaw #hollywood

How am I doing guys? No, not you, THEM. 

Are you getting your money's worth? 

500. OK, I'm done for now. 

It's not a test, your not supposed to understand at least half of it. 

An alphabet soup of crazy, like pin the tail on the donkey, let's just pick one.

9 out of 10 Doctors agree, Schizophrenic.

What this means is that I select the personalities in my group and that I can expel personalities that annoy me.

Unfortunately once I expel a personality from my group I can no longer control it.

Now if this had a cute Minion image next to it, everybody would think it was funny.

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Pez Outlaw, Wormy Turny #pezoutlaw

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I'm hoping 2024 will have exciting news for the Pez Outlaw Story. 
I will tell you what I can if and when ???? says it's OK.
Anyway, Here's hoping.

Can't let this slide.
Another darn free horse arrived yesterday making the count 19 horses on the farm.
Seriously, enough already.
I'm going through 9 to 10 bales of hay per day, minimum.
At this rate the 25 to 2700 bales we bought will run out very early spring n we will be buying more.

I love the horses n I get it that our farm is a desired place for someone to place there horse.
But anybody else wanna start taking some of these free horses?
My New Years wish is, NO MORE FREE HORSES.

Since I got my tractor back from repairs I've been playing in Mudd.
As much as 18 inches at times.
Manure waits for no man.
19 horses create a lot of manure.

I'm heading out early today, yes to play in the mud.
I put the snow chains on the front tires.
No snow so far but a big help in mud.

Have a really wonderful New Year, we all deserve one.
I'll try to get us off on a good foot by starting the New Year playing in the mud. 

promted by advert on facebook.
What part of work boot asks for or needs the word Stylish.
My work boots are covered in a thick layer of mud. That's Stylish. 
Kathy washed my work coat, next day covered in mud again. 
I've also gone through 4 pair of jeans in 4 days, casualties of mud war.
Good times spanking around in mud making snow/mud angels, Good times.
Gotta go, Time To Get Muddy. 

One last thing. I get tweets from Fortune Wealth types trying to reach out to me about success.
Kinda crazy, guys in suits trying to connect with a guy that plays in mud.
I'm Just Saying, weird huh. Yeah I'll be sending you money straight away, NO! n HELL NO!
Possibly the only guy you know that thinks getting bolt cutters and a truck load of bank run/dirt for Christmas is really cool.

I was going to make this post a long deal about my pet peeves.
One problem with that, not that much is really bothering me as we sit down together today.
I seem to be in a pretty good place right now.

Mind you that I'm in a fare mood is fighting the odds, because last night was a big ole full moon.
Usually my old friend depression seems to show up with the full moon each month.
I did a quick internal check n nope I'm OK.

This has been a pretty good year, all in all.
Pez Outlaw had a story in the April Playboy.
I haven't that I know of done anything to make anybody really hate me. PEZ?

The coming year holds much promise.


Pet Peeve
I'll give 110% or 1000%.
Start with the obvious, IT"S IMPOSSIBLE.
Even if you work 10 hours a day, at best you are giving 50% of your days efforts.

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Pez Outlaw, Fragged #pezoutlaw

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Shifting Sands

Your perception of life around you minutely changes every day.
The reason for this is that you change a little bit every day.
Each new day is affected by your interpretation of the previous.

These changes are easier to see year to year than day to day.
For me though with my ever shifting perspective day to day is like yr - yr.
My brain/mood can do a 180 overnight giving me a completely different perspective.

I'm not proud of this, I just accept it.
The result is that I try very hard not to make decisions based on any one day.
I try very hard to observe a 24-72hr rule before acting on anything.


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Don't you just hate it when you get up in the morning look in the mirror n this is what you see.

Pez Outlaw

Days of Fragmentation 

Touching reality for verification
Wondering how much is real 
Hoping for a way back

Tragedy
Minimization
Perspective

Live day to day
Was today a good day
That's enough

Release control
Understand, be patient
Don't add to the problem

This is about so many things.
Enough, I'm going somewhere else.

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My entire life has been one long trip down a rabbit hole.
I'm hoping the end is near.

There is no end game here at the Asylum only reflection.
By itself a contradiction as I avoid mirrors.

After writing about being a Catatonic in a Mental Institution, creating and living in this world for my amusement.
I explained to Kathy, I just like to take a thought n play it out.

I've also referred to the Asylum posts as wandering around in the darkened cavern of my brain, picking up scraps of thoughts n seeing where they go.
Notes From the Asylum is a self reflective exercise, nothing in good taste is off limits.
I really enjoy sharing perspective.
I enjoy a good story.
I like to create from nothing n see where it goes.

Yes, Notes From The Asylum has a lot to do with the person of Pez Outlaw.
It's just a thought, but I would think that the script writer would find the Asylum a rich resource as to the mind behind the adventure that became Pez Outlaw.

You know like say I'm an actor cast to play the part of Pez Outlaw.
I go to the director n say, hey coach what's my motivation, what makes this guy tick?
Well there you go, all the director has to do is give the actor a homework assignment of reading Notes From The Asylum.

The Asylum gives any wood-be actor playing Pez Outlaw insight as to the mind of Pez Outlaw.
Like that whole decade long journey of Pez Outlaw was a very weird undertaking, Why wasn't it viewed as weird even to him?
Voila, Notes From The Asylum, for insight.

I believe n hope that parts of the following are no longer true.

I have almost 15,000 hours into the Pez Outlaw project. 
At least 4 hrs per day for over 10 years, actually writing Pez Outlaw Diary, blogging about it n now Notes From The Asylum.

Yet on at least 6 occasions I believe I have tried to sabotage it.
Why?
It's easier to fail than to succeed.
It's easier to do a known than enter an unknown.
It's easier to fight than to win. Maybe I don't know how to handle victory, but I love the fight.
Maybe I don't think I deserve to win.
I have major trust issues.
Pez Outlaw Diary is my baby, possessive.
Finally if you ever allow a decades work to make it to the point where it's judged, you might fail. A part of you would prefer not to ever know that answer.

In short, sorry.
I'm trying real hard.

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Pez Outlaw, That Guy Follows Me Everywhere #pezoutlaw

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Have you ever looked into a mirror n thought upon seeing the reflection, You Again. 
Then rather annoyed say, Yeah that guy follows me everywhere.

I glanced at a side mirror yesterday n Told Kathy, Yeah that guy follows me everywhere.

I wish I could make the head on my new image twitch left n right 45 degrees. 
It just looks like that's what it wants to do.

If I live out my fantasies on facebook n twitter, is that fake news?
Where is the line that defines Reality?
How much affect does mental projection have on the story of our lives.
I rebel against any edict that defines my reality. 

I love a good conspiracy theory.
Are we really going to accept a world where the few decide what we read?
Can you live with others deciding for you what is real n what is not?
There is no line, only my choice to read it or not. 

My personal favorite conspiracy theory over the last year was Hillary Body Double.
How could anyone even dream of denying me the pleasure of that one?
Every since the first spoken words, we've told stories. 
How that Woolly Mammoth came down to a modern fish story.

There is no one truth, only many similar truths.
Our perceptions of things before our very eyes differs greatly.
Realities differ, some would say that they differ greatly.
Who we are, what we are n how we perceive others is not the same. 

City folks love the city, I'd rather be dead than live there.
I'm not right anymore than that city feller is wrong, we just like different things.
We perceive our surroundings differently.

We should all fear censorship by anyone for whatever noble reason that they might give.
Put it all out there n let us decide.
If we don't find it interesting or at the least entertaining, it will wither n die.
Nobody needs to dictate or decide thought for others.

If you support the suppression of speech beware, one day that knock will be on your door.
Life is absurd, can we just get on with it.
My mind belongs to no one.
I intend to piss both sides off.

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Pez Outlaw, Underdogology #pezoutlaw

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OH Yeah, we make up words all the time round here. 
What are they gonna do, Take my crayons away?
Nothing is fixed, things keep moving.

The Scrappy Misfit Underdog Wins

Isn't that what we all like to believe?
Hit him with a left hook, then a right jab.
Then pick yourself up off the mat n do it again.

Hey it worked in Rocky, so shouldn't it in life?
Unfortunately No.

Let me tell you a story.
We've got a Halflinger Mare that runs any pen she's in. 
Which is not to say she's the toughest or strongest.
Though Honey Bee is very strong for a pony.

No, what Honey has is a very determined mind.
You might kick her butt on your first day, but Honey will then dog you day after day until your will is gone.
You can put almost any horse in Honey's pen n she'll have them sorted out within days.

My point is that determination followed by action is what wins.
2 Decades, pish posh, a drop in the bucket. 

As my 18yr journey reaches a pivotal point, reflection seems to be what all the kids are doing.
Within the next 30 to 45 days decisions will be made.
The fate of humanity hangs in the balance. 

I pray for us all. 

It Makes me all warm n fuzzy inside to see how many authors of real books are starting to follow me on twitter. 

I like my memory of stuff better than the reality of what they were.

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Pez Outlaw, Giddy Up Tech #pezoutlaw

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Us old folks need a line of product called Giddy Up Tech.
I just spent 4 hours on updates to my computer.
Short Response, Microsoft I do not care, please stop it.
Do we really need every little genius idea these children come up with on our computers.
I blame the participation trophy generation that made these kids think every annoying idea they have is essential to us.

Long version.
Seriously Microsoft I can't begin to tell you how annoying all your updates are.
Beyond that once updated to windows 10 my computer wanted to bore me with how wonderful it is now.
Honestly, computer just shut up n let me get on with my stuff because I'm so not interested.
Then my computer wanted me to choose apps for?
Again, not interested, please get off my screen.
Oh yeah then of course I had to update Norton, YEAH!

I really have to tell you my emotion is, I HATE COMPUTERS.

My computer is forever wanting me to choose, add, update, pick.
NO, NO, NO, NO.
The degree to which I'm not interested, just can not be measured.

You know that phone for old folks on TV with big numbers n simplicity of use.
I think it's called the Giddy Up or something.
I/we old people need a computer that works like that.
Big numbers, leaves us alone n just let's us do the few simple things we want to do.

I just bought a new thermometer with giant numbers, love that thing.

Damn, getting a popup, pick an app, What The Hell.
No idea what it's even asking?
I know the kids love apps but I have no idea n certainly don't use them.
Please go away.

I have never bought or used an app n I never will.
Reason, no idea what an app is or how to use one.
Reason 2, I don't want to know what an app is n no desire to use one. 
app to me is some made up thing to distract children from reality.
I don't need an app for distraction.
I'm Old, I got that covered.

While we're at it.
Would someone please make a simple TV.
I swear I'm afraid to do anything because if I do, I have no idea if I'll ever make it back.
So Josh gives me a thumb drive with a movie, umm yeah but????

Anyway, I have very simple needs, please tailor a TV, a computer Hell even a radio I can actually use.
God, I miss knobs. 
Click n your done.
Don't have to give your life story just to use it.

Tech designers you do know us old fogies are getting to be the biggest segment of the population?
Maybe products we find easier to use?

Ebay, for the record you are no better.
The number of messages I get from you on stupid stupid subjects of no relevance or interest to me is absurd. 
Simplicity Boys n Girls. Not interested in all the Fru Fru n Do Da.
Yeah Yeah your wonderful ebay but all the Lookie Lookie n backslapping.
Man I'd think by now you'd have laryngitis n an awfully sore arm.

Us old folks need a line of product called Giddy Up Tech.
Computers, telephones, TV's, Radios, microwaves, kitchen ranges, washers dryers etc that we actually understand and can use.
The last thing older people want is integrated appliances or remotes that do everything.
If I want something on, I turn it on.
If I want to set a thermostat up or down, I do it.

This interdependence on tech is a real doomsday scenario.
Everybody is unlearning how to do everything.
Power goes n nothing works.
Forget it if there's an EM Pulse.

Don't get me started on tech dependent cars, there's a catastrophe waiting to happen.
You know that billion we were all talking about.
Start a car company that removes every single bit of tech from a car. Everything.
Basically I'd make 1945 to 1955 Ford trucks.
If you know what happens, they'd be the only things driving around, that n horses.
That n a 1945 to 1955 Ford truck, you can actually fix one yourself.

Giddy Up Tech, That's the ticket.

Security Gizmo

Billy Dog n Po, security gizmo's. 
Wait a dog gone minute, I should name my next dog Security Gizmo.

Have you seen the commercial for what seems to be putting a phone in place of your doorbell.
The idea is, badguy rings your bell/phone, you act like you're home n he goes away.

First, badguys see commercials too.
It's kinda obvious to me that badguys know what these doorbell/phones look like.

My guess is what your not going to hear are the following 2 results.
These doorbell/phones are going to get stolen at a high rate.
2. Accidental home invasions with people home will increase because badguys will see the gizmo n think nobody is home.

This is my solution.

My Security Gizmo #1

My Security Gizmo #2

You come to my door n if the barking does not send you packing.
Billy Dog looking at you through the window in the door will.

You come to my door n Billy Dog is looking right at you saying she is home.
I don't need a doorbell/phone to pretend I'm home. because I am home.

Billy Dog is not afraid of anything?????
Except little puddy baby dachshund under the covers in bed.
It freaks her out.

Basically it's this.
If there selling it on TV, it's too late.
Badguys watch TV Too.
Get a BIG DOG. 

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