Pez Outlaw, Perspective #pezoutlaw

 

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You are where you are.

As the Pez Outaw Movie is released interviews crop up.

You are asked to tell Bits about the story, problem is this has been a 20 to 25 year journey n at this point I'm reflecting on the road traveled to get here.

I'm asked to tell stories.

My best story McHookers is untellable. It falls flat every time. You would think a story about Hookers at McDonalds would be funny. 

For me at my best, Life is a cartoon.

Life is a journey, when you are lucky it shocks you. Mine has exceded anything I could imagine many times  I am very fortunate but it has a price, everything does. You trade decades for each big win. In each win so far though I get almost a decade to live my wildest dream.

I can't emphasize enough how people like me n where I come from don't get movies made about them, we watch movies n dream.

The road from shooting heroine to this movie is very long. 

My story is every middle class n poor persons dream. My win shows them that there not crazy n to quit listening to people that tell them its not possible. Like, Oh Yeah well he did it n he's nuts, so why not me/them.  I'm one of them n they see n know that .

I show all my scars so they know that i'm not a pretender. You want to reach poor n middle class folks my story is there story. 

My 4 brothers are Flabbergasted I think that A movie was made about me. I was the screw up, always in trouble n in need of rescue. So how in Gods name did he end up here? 

The line in my writing is the Key. At that point I realized that I had One last thing to sell, MY STORY. My whole life led me here n prepared me for this.

There is a point to this statement.

The road from shooting heroine to this movie is very long.

I don't care how far you are down, There is a road back.

Even more with a great deal of hard work n dedication, you can even accomplish the impossible.

There is always Hope.

I found Bottom so many times, yet somehow Hope stayed alive within me.

Honestly I have no idea how you can fail so many times in life, then Fight your way back after each one.

Truly there is only one answer Mom, Darlin Girl, Kathy.

 I'm at heart a storyteller. Its up to others which ones are any good

You ever notice how you struggle to get somewhere n when you get there all sorts of folks wanna sell you maps.

Wanna share something personal.

I've been dissapointed with/by people I do business with so many times that it's more the rule than the exception. Then you meet the exceptions to that rule. Bryan Storkel n Amy Bandlien Storkel have never let me down. You get to that point where it ussually happens n nope just good news.

I really don't know how to explain this, it's such an exception. Good decent Honest people with Kind hearts. I truly love them both n it's been a pleasure working with them. My only regret is that we can't do the whole thing all over again.

I would be remiss if I did'nt mention that other exception to this rule, Larry Mason. I've never met a nicer person with such a giving heart.

After such a long struggle, that I feared I might not see the end of.

I have been Blessed with so many good friends.

Thank you Tina Christison Gunsauls for leading me out of the Darkness. A writer once asked me a why/who question for the millionth time. I told him when in doubt it was Tina.

The 2 Pez Outlaws Larry Mason n I are working on right now for a September release will reflect the Duality of Life Itself. / Ying n Yang.

How we strive for a humble life n how people that see you each day, see one person.

Then circumstances call for your ID or alter ego to emerge.

A reflection of the moment, 2 polar opposite Pez Outlaws.

To be clear. Pez Outlaw is as much a part of me as my other life. But he is not always there. He has never not shown up when I need him n I thank God For That.

Being a Diagnosed Schizophrenic can be useful.

You can obsess about something, which gets the job done.

And you can ignore it at the same time, which saves your sanity.

nobody is getting out of this alive.

we all stick our hands in the bowl to see what our ticket is gonna be.

mine is to simplify, crazy. moms is parkinsons. a friends is cancer. another persons is dimentia.

look i'm not trying to depress you, i want to show you something.

how mom n i deal with everything. we get up each day thank god for another day. take inventory n say okay thats where we are today.

my strategy is to have goals n projects that will take 5, 10 n 15 years to finnish.

we press the boundaries, use it or lose it.

so when i joke about this or that its not meant to minimize that thing. its to try n move beyond the obsticle.

laugh, joke, n hard work.

this post was prompted by my joke about, once around the bowl goldfish memory, then hearing that someone i know has dimentia.

this day, this moment, live it. the rest is tomorrows problem.

The Joke was a Gold fish reference to memory.

I was tellin Darlin Girl, " Once around The Bowl n it's all Gone".

About Myself.

Life Is A Cartoon.

A moment is all we get.
It's never enough.

The Bathroom Scales are on a Time Out in the hallway.

My Hair has been a bit depressed.
We got a lot of Jumpers.

#Beardstrong

Work Keeps gettin in the way of my Lazy.

Sometimes you have to earn your Lazy.

My brain hates repetition.

It starts to mess with me to get even.

There are rules to Bubble wrap.

I allow myself 1 bubble per sheet.

To pop more would be over indulgent.

Saw the optomotrist yesterday.

Told her my joke about having a bad 20yrs.

as to why she hadn't seen me in 2 decades.

She politely laughed.

I am not responsible for yesterday n day befores posts.

SUPER MOON!

My depresions swing with the full moon n that was a Doozie. Wolfman jokes are OK! If there is a Depessed WolfMan?

Complaints department

My computer is sticking n slow, I guess $300 doesn't buy what it used to.

My computer says Quick Was $400 more Buddy.

Paypal, Please stop asking me if I'm a robot, it was only funny the 1st 12 times.

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It's a Scooby Doo Mystery?

Head Shoulders Knees N Toes

Head Shoulders Knees N Toes

Day Turns To Night, Reality Slips Away.
Yesterday was a bit unnerving for me.
My mother's been dead for about 40yrs, yet I expected her to come round the corner at any moment n tell me that it's time to come home.

This detachment from your world started when my watch was telling me it was Friday when I thought it was Thursday. (daylight savings am for pm slip up)
What bothered me the most is that I had no recollection of Thursday, nothing at all.
This error was backed up by the hay count, which also indicated it was Friday.
Add to that, the horses were still in n it was past noon.

My grip on reality is tentative at the best of times, so a lot of questions started running though my mind.
Was I dreaming? My dreams can be pretty vivid n seem quite real at times.
I used my dream escape hatch by closing my eyes real tight n opening them real fast.
Always works, nope I seem to be awake.

My father died from Alzheimer's  so I even thought maybe it was really night n this reality was the confused state that Alzheimer's victims see.

I also believe in parallel multi Universes.
You see I kinda wonder n believe that it's possible that when you die in this Universe that you immediately join with yourself in another parallel Universe to continue.
How else do you explain my survival after so many poor choices in life.

All these things went through my mind one after the other.
Here's the embarrassing thing.
I know right about here you think I'm joking or making an attempt at being clever.
Sorry I'm not that clever or funny, the sad truth is that this was my reality for about an hour.

Slowly reality crept back in, but I swear I expected at any moment my Mom would come round the next corner n say time to come home steven.

Kathy's been gone a few days n my mind gets to wandering when left untended.
Kathy is my tether to this world. 

Kathy asked me, Why the tomb stones?

She thought the image kinda grim.

No reason, I just like the pic.

One night while walking on the dark n lonely road that leads to Stonecrete Asylum, something that can't be explained happened.

I saw a bright light coming towards me from the woods behind the Asylum cemetery.

I'd heard the stories of Old Sparky.

Whispers late in the night by children to scare each other.

Old Sparky approached dragging a lightning bolt along the ground.

Using the lightning bolt like a sigh to destroy everything in his path. 

The perverse joy in his heart while working was spellbinding.

To my horror by morning I knew The Legend of Old Sparky was true.

Old Sparky was first sighted in the worst lightning storm of the 1800s.

Lightning so severe that it ripped a hole in our reality to pull Old Sparky through.

Sentenced to roam the night whenever lightning strikes searching for a way home.

Time a bitter reminder n Humanity an annoyance to be swatted.

Old Sparky just wandered around the wilderness for the first century lonely n confused.

In the 1950s he started getting angry at the encroachment of humanity on the purgatory he had been condemned to.

1951 was the first recorded event of Old Sparky.

All his previous activities were written off to bad storms n stories for children.

June of 1951 the headline read "Stonecrete Asylum, 21 Slain" in the worst lightning storm seen in 2 centuries.

Stories conflicted because the deaths took place at The Old Stonecrete Asylum.

The only surviving witnesses had been in Stonecrete Asylum so long that there account of what happened was considered unreliable.

Problem was what happened had no other explanation.

Inmates saw Old Sparky walk into the Stonecrete cemetery then seem to vanish as the last bolt of lightning struck.

Who knows maybe it's an elevator pitch?

 Pez Outlaw Diary

Things Life Has Taught Me. Pez Outlaw #pezoutlaw

 

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If you see things on the Big Ole World of the interweb & wonder why I seem to have no reaction.
I tend to stay on my own pages. When I see or am made aware of certain things, My Go To is to ignore them.
Mentally I find this to be the kindest thing that I can do for myself.
I have very precise goals, I keep my focus on them & ignore everything else. They are just distractions that hinder my objectives.
There is always a lot of Chaos that swirls around everything, that must be ignored.
Life will tell you being obsessive compulsive with tunnel vision is your burden to be bared & medicated.
Well of course that's one way if you find it to much to bare.
Ever since I was a child, You tell me I must or try to force me, My back gets up with rebellion.
I think & hope that I have learned how to use what others call dissabilities.
Well we will see?

Some think anger, profanity & hostility are the way to fight.

My 20 years in poverty taught me that the opposite is true.

Patience, calm & precision are the best way.

Hostility, Anger & profanity turn people off & send them running.

They tune you out.

This is a very long game.

Envision your goals, make them the new Hobby in your brain.
When you can see them, your actions will be guided by them.

Very important. Remove negative people & thoughts from your life. They are like Vampires & will suck the life from your dreams. It's far to easy to say I can't. The real strength is needed to say I can.

That's why I have surrounded myself with The Pezzies. I have never met a KInder, more supportive & generous group of People.

Pez Outlaw, Relentless n Shameless #pezoutlaw

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I am never offended when someone unfriends me because they just can't take it anymore.

Every time somebody I know asks to be friended on facebook.
I ask them or at least think, 
Are you sure you really want this?

I often think of my methods as Brute Force.
In the vane of the old Soviet Method of re-engineering technology.
Give me something stupid, I use it.
Lack of understanding how to use something, no problem.
Just plow forward.

No fear of being trashed by someone who might take exception To Pez Outlaw Diary or a post on Notes From The Asylum.
There anger would just be free publicity.

On twitter alone I've got over 100,000 posts.
My facebook friends definitely grow weary of being the conduit to my imaginary perception of the Internet as an entity.

Anyway I'm sorry to my friends on facebook.
I'm not going to stop, but I am sorry. 

This post is a prime example.
There was a point to the Torture of today's posts on google+, facebook and twitter.

I know that I can get over 2,000 to 3,000 views of Notes Fron The Asylum in 4 hrs if I'm willing to put the work in. Today once again I proved the point. 1,100 views.

It's not about being right. Proving a point or using you.  

To the contrary I really appreciate you and the dependable interest level in Notes From The Asylum.

Anyway days like today are to show myself the strength of Notes From The Asylum, but only if I'm willing to personally put the work in.

Today though was/is a soft push,  on hard push days I max out the number of posts you are allowed on twitter within a given time period n am given a time-out by twitter.
Nowhere near close to that today.

After Pez Outlaw, I intend to retire.

Pez Corporate Fraud, Pez Color War, Restitution.