Pez Outlaw, Are We There Yet?

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Still waiting on a Book offer From a Publishing House.

My dream is that I have written enough here in the Asylum n Pez Outlaw Diary, that a very good editor can find the Book.

If not that a Good Ghost Writer can use a bunch of what I've written n fill in the weak spots.

The only real way to contact me is on Facebook as I do not talk on telephones n have never sent or gotten an email.

Facebook Private messages only. I never open links or messages on twitter.

I post this message to Book Publishers For good reason.

Something that you don't know. Bryan n Amy Storkel told me that they would have contacted me years earlier about Making The Pez Outlaw Movie, but they thought no way this story isn't already under contract.

So Book Publishers, I am not under contract for The Pez Outlaw Book.
 

Can you believe it? I won Best actor at the SXSW Film Festival.

I'm beginning to open my eyes to the world again after what seems a coma. I closed my eyes 20 years ago & ignored the world in pursuit of an obsession I could not describe or explain. Tonight, I realized for maybe the 1st time the sacrifice.

You may not agree but 50 years old is a very young man when you look at it from 73. When I got back from the SXSW Film Festival, I broke down telling Darlin Girl, I made it. Was it planned? Did I actually know what I was Doing? Or is this what finally losing your mind looks like after clinging to reality by your fingertips for so long?

I wish that I knew the answer.

My quarter century journey began in bitterness at loss, failure & desperation. I wish I could say I planned everything, But obsession ruled the day. Now I realize I gave the reins to an uncontrollable desire, an inability not to Fight back.

I didn't have the skills to begin my journey so I taught them to myself. I work in public because then I know if I'm headed in the right direction or not. Yup trial & error was my teacher.

Tonight I Blinked, because that's how you wake up from a dream if you want to. Everybody knows that. I woke from my 20 year slumber to something once again I do not understand. A world where people watch a movie that I'm in Then I sit on a stage & talk to people like I have something interesting to say. Wait a minute I watch movie, I'm not in them.

Now you tell me that I'm not in that Looney Bin I interviewed for back in 69. Then somebody gives me an award for acting, Oh pull the other one. All I did was what was asked of me. 

Yes, I woke to a dream. A dream I prayed 20 years for. I believe it's real because I really want it to be true. I owe her that. If it is real it's only because she allowed me to do this truly absurd thing. Darlin Girl has always been there to guide me on this journey I've never been equipped to handle. If this is actually happening & not a fantasy, I hope I can make her eyes sparkle like watching a sunrise.

Back in 98 I failed her in a most spectacular manner. Of course I did no half measures, all in, boom or bust. Will I do better this Time?

In For A Penny.

Very nervous n anxious today.

Eyes all bugy.

No specific reason just is.

I guess this is just how what is happening feels.

There is a very funny thing about all this.

At times it scares the hell outa you, but does that make you slow it down. Oh Hell no. You toss gas on the fire.

Old habits.

As you know by now, I hope, there are a lot of things I'm not terribly comfortable with.

Well suck it up Bubba. It's not about you, it's HIM n The Movie.

So at many moments I will be stepping out of My comfort zone.

So many people have given so much to The Pez Outlaw Movie.

I can not freeze up n let everybody down.

So far, every time that I've asked Pez Outlaw to come out n play, He has shown up. Thank God for that anyway.

Terry Bradshaw n Tiny Horses

There is no such thing as a FREE Horse!

"Free" Horses usually come with with a pretty good Vet Bill.

Mind you I'm not complaining, actually I'm Fixin to tell you what I think is a funny story.

BlackHawk/Hawk/Hawkeye came to us recently with a bum leg, so our dear Friend Dr Katie has been here last few days. Dr Katie, her assistant n Darlin Girl were all in the Horse stall workin on him.

In I came, Launching into a story about something I saw somewhere about Perfectly formed very tiny horses in a show ring With Terry Bradshaw.

Oh wait I guess that was a dream, huh. Kept talkin about how cute those Tiny horses n how cute they were. You guessed it stares of ......

Thing is, you make a movie n talk to folks it would appear they love it. In the Barn Darlin Girl n Dr Katie wish I'd quit bothering them.

Oh n of course it was Terry Bradshaw showing one of those Tiny Horses in my Dream, Love that guy.

Later That Evening

I was tellin Darlin Girl Kathy about some drill holders I made in the shop. Told her might need to make more cause you need more long drills on the farm. I think I was a little to excited in the tellin, cause she gave me a funny look. Like baby you don't chase other women (never Have) so if this is what excites you, I'm all for it.

Seemed a funny in my head.

Old people Jokes.

Coming Attractions

Cleveland, Phoenix, Detroit, Milwaukee, etc.

I wish I could be there with all of you at each n every one of the premieres. But I just checked my pockets n yup Lint. Though I think that I was invited to one of them as a guest (means they pay, Free Starbucks n Donuts I'm there).

Did you know I can drink 2 Starbucks double shot expresso coffees n take a nap? True story. Oh yeah n Donuts are a Vegetable.