Case File 19.
13 years ago I was in Paris.
No idea what the future held.
Do I really want to know?
How do I fit my dreams into this reality?
The Absurdity of life is intoxicating.
Don't tell people what you know is true.
Wear the face people expect to see.
Mustn't appear different.
I keep going back to 51% Sane.
Are you ready for what's coming?
Maybe I wasn't
Bones in the crawl space?
If not for crazy, reality would kill me.
The shame of Time lost.
The cycle repeats.
My Angel is gone.
Nothing is fixed.
Neglected past, unrecognized present.
Fantasy the last refuge.
The tears of a child for his future.
A window from that moment to this?
Is it yet to come?
I can't control how others see me.
That's their truth.
Crazy would be to try.
I came here expecting nothing.
Truth revealed itself.
Shame fell away.
A liberating truth.
Labels became assets.
Clarity, before darkness claims it's own.
WINNER n Still Champion, Big Fish, 5,700 views.
4 posts in Notes From The Asylum have well over 4,000 views each.
- Big Fish Mystery #pezoutlaw #hollywood #NFTA
- Secrets #pezoutlaw #hollywood #NFTA
- Rocks Float #pezoutlaw #hollywood @pezoutlaw #NFTA...
- 2020 ☑️ PEZ OUTLAW FOR PRESIDENT #pezoutlaw #holly...
NFTA currently is at 445,000 views overall.
My twitter page has had approx 5million impressions.
I like to think of life like the the stars in the sky.
Each star is a moment in time or a thought.
With NFTA I try to pluck some of those moments to create a stream of thought.
I understand that abstract thought is not every-bodies cup of tea.
Those that don't get or like it, don't.
Those that do, I treasure.
Life is just the agreed upon version of crazy.
My search is connect the unconnected dot that we usually can't see.
Big Fish was a gift, that I'm very grateful for.
The title always comes first.
The words fall down underneath it.
The Universe in all its forms will speak to you if you are listening.
I have no use for the past n little for the present.
My interest is the moments in between.
Moments of clarity, a brief conversation with the unseen.
Reality is tedious, but moments of clarity are delicious.
I live each day in the hope of those brief moments.
I don't get them every day or even once a week, but often enough that I wait for each one.
That's why I'm so grateful for Big Fish.
The title is the key that unlocks the door.
Within is that which feeds my soul.
Abstract thought is like dancing between raindrops n not getting wet.
The raindrops of the past, the present n the future.
What I want can only be found between the drops of rain.
I really like Big Fish Mystery.
In my attempts to create abstraction with words, to date it's my best.
I really hope that you agree.
Big Fish is now at over 5,000 views n at the top of my A-List.
When you love something it feels really good to see approval.
? some perspective might shed light.
I have cut approx 300 of the 520 posts I've written.
It used to be I cut a post if it only achieved 250 views in say 4 months.
Now posts with 500+ views get cut, I only want the best on Notes From The Asylum.
Very soon that bar will be any post with less than 1,000 views will get cut from NFTA.
Number of views are like ratings here at the Asylum, just like TV low ratings get cut.
Notes From The Asylum is just under 2yrs old.
It used to take 6months to a year for a post to hit 1,000 views.
Only 2 other posts have had this type of success out of the 500 posts I've written n the 194 that have survived on NFTA.
That said though over a dozen posts are now at over 2,000 views ea.
1 post is at over 4,000 views, 2020 ☑️ PEZ OUTLAW FOR PRESIDENT #pezoutlaw #holly...
Of all the things I've done in my life, I would find the most gratification in Notes From The Asylum being published.
NFTA is creation n I love that most of all.
Within the next 2 months Notes From The Asylum will reach a very big milestone.
Unfortunately, to broadcast it might not be something I should share.
To my knowledge Congress nor the President are going to pass a law giving Pez Outlaw success.
So Forgive me, I just feel if my life is gonna change, I gotta do it.
Various administrations come n they go, my destiny is up to me.
So Holidays etc, I continue to work.
Other peoples good fortune is there's not mine.
I choose not to live through there success or failure.
To do so would diffuse my efforts.
Congratulations n good luck but honestly it will not change my life.
Only my efforts can be mine or change my life.
That said we continue, I have daily goals that must be met.
Today my mood like my Boots has a lot of mud on it.
Have you ever noticed how your mood reflects the weather?
Yesterday one of the gals had a really good day with her horse.
She was walking around on cloud 9 n didn't want the day to end.
It's all perspective isn't it.
I've been slogging around in 4 inches of mud for 4 days now, so my perspective is different.
It's all where you stand.
Nice hard ground n enclosed arena or out in the pens like me n the horses.
Of all the posts I've written in Notes From The Asylum, Big Fish n Secrets are my favorites.
Totally off subject.
Recently I was made aware of a Blue Dog needing a home.
I just couldn't, I need a Big Red Dog.
Like Maggie Thatcher said, I'm getting Wobbly.
Big Red Dogs (Bull Mastiff's) are my Spirit Guides.
Yes, I believe in that stuff with all my heart.
It's been to long.
Just dawned on me, maybe that's her name.
When you ask to be friended or follow me, make sure it's what you really want, because I'm relentless in pursuit of my goals.
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